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Post by mcphillips11 on Apr 21, 2012 14:10:43 GMT -5
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anita
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Post by anita on Apr 22, 2012 13:16:39 GMT -5
You poor dear, I am sorry you are in such a bad place. I wish I could help.
Please don't do anything drastic. We are all here for you. Vent as much as you need. All your losses are so hard, but time will heal the pain. It will take time so take things slowly. You only have to get through the next second, then the next. Soon you will be able to get through a whole minute, then an hour, then a day.
Please just take some time for yourself to grieve.
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Post by mcphillips11 on Apr 22, 2012 22:27:40 GMT -5
I just so emotionally exhausted. I dont see the light. I feel like its my fsult. I just want peac
e for five seconds
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Post by justlostanangel on Apr 23, 2012 2:24:52 GMT -5
{{{{{{HUGE HUGS}}}}}} to you, hon!! Please know that all these emotions you're dealing with are normal, & it's OK to feel angry at God---He can take it! I wish I could give you an answer as to why those of us who so desperately want a baby can't have one, & those who abuse the precious gift of a child seem to breed every year (or more often). Those are answers we won't get for a while. PLEASE don't take any drastic action! Losing one child, one family member is hard enough, but when the losses come so close together; it just compounds the grief! Anita is right; just take things one second, one breath at a time. It's not an easy process, but we are here to help you through it! If it helps, then stand in your closet (or shower, wherever) & scream---sometimes that helps! It's perfectly OK to yell, cry......and miss your babies so much it feels like you're being stabbed by the shards of your broken heart. Please feel free to post here as often, or as little, as you need to.....we "get it" here.
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Post by mcphillips11 on Apr 23, 2012 4:55:43 GMT -5
I hate having to be the mom that uses this site. Ever since I was a little girl if anyonr ever asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up I would say a mommy. I lost my uncle then I lost my frist baby in 2010 then I lost my grandpa the year after then it was my second baby now my grandma and not even 24hours later this baby I just prayed so much for God to let me have this one least twice a day i pray to him and he never listened it took my baby I am still a little in shock more just angry and broken
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Post by justlostanangel on Apr 23, 2012 19:12:09 GMT -5
Please be gentle with yourself; the healing process takes time. I don't mean this to sound rude or "preachy" or anything like that, but I've been there myself; I was so angry at God, for a long time, that I wasn't sure I could ever get to a point where I could talk to Him again. I'm not back yet to the relationship I once had, but I'm trying, & I know for every step I take, He takes at least 2! It's OK to be in shock, angry, and very broken; part of your heart was lost with your babies...and that's how it should be for a mama. I'm so sorry for all your losses! Please be patient, kind & gentle with yourself; remember that we are here for you!
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Post by mom4ever on Apr 23, 2012 20:17:38 GMT -5
 :'(My heart breaks for you Your Subject line about just wanting to be with your babies in heaven...I just wanted to be in heaven with mine.. I really get that.. so sorry hon (((hug))) it's one minute at a time Here... the goal of getting through all the way to the end of a day is a big enough one right now..I know you feel splintered into shards..i'm so sorry Words can't describe how sorry I am for all of your losses OOOhh was I mad at Him sometimes. I'm glad you can say that you are.. I kept hiding that from myself for a while Keep writing if you can, we're here
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Post by mcphillips11 on Apr 24, 2012 6:10:10 GMT -5
i am just so impatient right now i want to be okay again i feel like ever since i was a jr in high school bad things have been happening to me i just want to know when is it mine turn to have somethings good or go right. do you guys have any ideas on what i can do to help me get through it this time. my boyfriend is get me a new puppy to help me to keep me busy and he said that since i cant have my human baby i can whatever puppy my heart wants. anymore ideas to help?
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Post by mom4ever on Apr 25, 2012 9:11:24 GMT -5
Hey hon, i'm glad you're writing. Though it isn't easy, and so sorry, usually the best way to be okay is to "be where you're at" right now..honestly with all of the painful emotions. Times of feeling okay will come. And it's normal for them to come and go, and just to know that when times of sadness and pain come it's okay. Another member asked, and some people answered and addressed this a little as the link below shows. If for some reason I didn't paste it right you can click on "I had a miscarriage" and go back to mid May, around page 8 I think. Sometimes it really helps to read through other entries too to know we're not alone and not unusual. There are also some good articles on this site. Support is so important. We're here. (((hugs))) silentgrief.proboards.com/index.cgi?action=display&board=ihadamiscarriage&thread=97009&page=1 |
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Post by mcphillips11 on Apr 25, 2012 9:48:37 GMT -5
i want to know did this situation cause huge problems in your relationships
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Post by mom4ever on Apr 25, 2012 21:23:21 GMT -5
With me, as with too many people here, yes.
Many other people just don't want or understand to treat our gestationaly aged children as real people who deserve respect and are worth grieving over as any child.
How are you being treated?
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Post by mcphillips11 on Apr 25, 2012 21:45:27 GMT -5
I have a lot of support but with my boyfriend we have been fighting a lot cuz this is his first loss and this is my third I am two years older than him and I could never tell are difference but with this situation I can serimmaturity so its hard cuz I ferl like I like I only want to be with him but at times I feel he does know what to do so he gets mean sometimes which upsets me and I already Moody as it us
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Post by mom4ever on Apr 28, 2012 13:53:21 GMT -5
I'm sorry that can be hard sometimes
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Post by mcphillips11 on Apr 29, 2012 14:53:58 GMT -5
unbelievably hard
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