Post by mollyb on Mar 31, 2014 19:18:04 GMT -5
I finally decided it was time for me to join a message board because after having a miscarriage, you really begin to understand that until you go through something like this, you can never really comprehend the hurt that comes along with it.
My husband and I have been TTC since July of 2013. After only a few (long) months we found out on 12-28-13 that we were pregnant. Our family was under the impression that we never wanted children so we were so excited to spring the news on everyone. On New Year's Day we had finally got everyone in our family told in person. What a joy it was to see everyone's reaction to our news. The next day I miscarried. I haven't been the same since. I would have never guessed that losing someone I had only known for 6 days and really hadn't even met yet would be the one person I grieve over the most.
Now we are TTC again and you know how you always seem to hear, "Well so and so had a miscarriage and was pregnant the next month..." Well it doesn't always work that way. I'm just so beyond frustrated by the miscarriage, and by the BFN I seem to get every time I take a test. Oh, and in Jan of 2014, my brother and his wife found out they were expecting their second child. I'm truly happy for them, but the cold, hard sting of jealousy is there also. Everyone says, "You will have your time." I can't help but let my inner 2 year old come out though and throw a tantrum on the floor screaming "I want it now!"
My husband and I have been TTC since July of 2013. After only a few (long) months we found out on 12-28-13 that we were pregnant. Our family was under the impression that we never wanted children so we were so excited to spring the news on everyone. On New Year's Day we had finally got everyone in our family told in person. What a joy it was to see everyone's reaction to our news. The next day I miscarried. I haven't been the same since. I would have never guessed that losing someone I had only known for 6 days and really hadn't even met yet would be the one person I grieve over the most.
Now we are TTC again and you know how you always seem to hear, "Well so and so had a miscarriage and was pregnant the next month..." Well it doesn't always work that way. I'm just so beyond frustrated by the miscarriage, and by the BFN I seem to get every time I take a test. Oh, and in Jan of 2014, my brother and his wife found out they were expecting their second child. I'm truly happy for them, but the cold, hard sting of jealousy is there also. Everyone says, "You will have your time." I can't help but let my inner 2 year old come out though and throw a tantrum on the floor screaming "I want it now!"