Sister in law commited suicide

[jezebel]

Thursday the 23rd of jan. my sister in law commited suicide, My Husband's brother's wife, she was sick for most of her life menatally ill she was high strung and through it is no surprise to her committing this awful act we seem to think it was something that could not be avoided we figured it would be sleeping pills but she decide to take a 410 with shot and do her deed. Terry's brother found her he had called a few time 3 4 time during the day I think the first time he called she had did it. This last year and now the begining of this year is not going well in in Oct we had another brother's son's wife have a child at 26 weeks it lasted 4 months but was taken off of life support then Terry's uncle died and then my Aunt Elinor died the 23 of dec. she had kidney cancer and now this. Terry's (my huhsbnad) brother is tore up and I don't know how he is gonna do, we have had him here staying with us. SO much death in such a short time we say that we have a curse on the family and it can be anything or anyone it has been runing for a while now. The brother's wife as I hear got real paranoid she was always paranoid but she got to the point where she thought people were watching her and they were moving out but nothing of the sort was going on. She also was on 15 differnt pills mind pills pain pills and I don't know what else but I know some about them and I think she was on too many. She had asked the doctor to take her off the pills some of them but he just gave her more and I think the doctor should be brought up on charges of involentary man slaughter but the brother says he don't think anything will come of it I would if it was me no matter if I got anything I would make sure his name was known and that people knew what he did. I can't do anything because I am not blood kind to her so I have to let it slide but I might be able to get a list if what she was taking and maybe a doctor to tall me if the drugs helped in her demise also her father died around Christmas and her family can not get a long they didn't seem to care about her and all they do is fight over who gets what. His brother I feel might of not did this thought I would never say anything to him about this he left the 410 loaded in the house in her bedroom they didn't sleep togetrher as far as I know anyhow it was loaded and maybe this was not a good idea to do I don't have any loaded weapons in my house since we have grand kids but even so I still don't have them loaded you just don't do this. But if she was so wanting to do this deeed she would of found a way if not by the shot gun it would of been something else. Her relatives now have contated his brother and balme him for this I don't hold blame I might not think the laoded weapon was a good idea but we are having more and more home invassion and it could be she could of had one no one knows when one will happen

it is just so sad but she had been tomented by her demons for a long long time ansd I think thought it may sound awful I think this was best she is at peace and the demons now are silent and she is happy now for once in all her time she has been I hope she has a specail place in Heaven where people like her are gien all the loe and what ever she lacked on earth is given there in Heaven . I had said to my husband maybe if I was a better friend and maybe if I went to see her more offten or maybe if I was not so distant from her maybe she wouldn't of did this but my husband said it was gonna happen one day and there is nothing anyone could of did she was just a time bomb waiting to go off. This is the first suicide in the family we know of I don't know of any in my family either and it is a hard blow for us all when we heard this that night he called we rushed to him and the cops and abulance was there already. I wish I could help his brother out he asked how I got through it with my son and father I said I took one day at a time in in time it got easier for me the firast 6 mos was thwe hardest I woke up every morning hoping it was just a bad dream one I would wake from but it was a nightmare I can't wake from and I just learned to live with the fact that it was so. I hope his brother goes for help and couseling he needs it I was ever so glad I found this site and to know all the thoughts I had was normal because I thought at one point I had really croosed over and need the men in the white coats


Well thank's for leting me talk and listen to me here I hope tomorrow goes well since she is to be put in the ground tomorrow.

Rhayden