Post by jezebel on Jan 15, 2014 9:46:15 GMT -5
I wonder doesn everyone count the years that go by, does it seem like the year just zip by for you or do they go so slow. I know I am just into this awful journey but my years well this April will be two years itn has just gone by so fast will it continue to go by so fast or will it slow down and then be so slow. I am happy it is going fast since I go to PA to see David but on a sad note his friend have moved out of PA and live in another state so I am not sure if I will see them this year but it is not a done deal yet. I think a lot of my som yet his laughter his humor how off beat it was just like mine. How he could make you laugh when you didn't have anything to laugh about. How unfiar it is he is gone and I am here and how it should of been me that died not him. I would be lying if I didn't say I have thought ( THOUGHT) of kiling myself but it will never happend don't fret my life is with my hubsnad and this beutiful house I now have and I think if I di this his daughter that put me thought so mcuh she would win and BUY THE GODS I am not gonna let her win she will have to wait to be able to have this pace for me to die. It has thrown a wrench in things that David has died all I have was to go to David but ot I have thinks I don't know who to give them to I think bhis friends should get them but then again I have a lock box that has money in it now the csh is not worht anything just face value but one day it could be and David would of got it at this time it is worth about 200 that is all. I thought about burryinging it in the yard down deep so oe day a long time from now when everyone is gone the box can be found and be of some use to some one or maybe it will never be found depending on how deep I put it in. My father saved all this for a reason and I am not gonna spend any of it I know he wanted me to have it but we (Dad me and my sister always thought David would be around we never thought David would died before me and my sister. I don't want to donate it to anyone they will spend it and my father's weapon what do I do with it there are no more of my father's kin of boys David was it. anyoe have any ideas on what to do withn this that it will not be spent or the gun I thought of my cousin but they could sell the gun I am to be cremated as my husband is so it can't be with me if I would of thought fast enough I would of brouoght the gun with me and put it in with dad or David. I have been thinking of this since the fire. Anyone can help me on this quest??
Rhayden