Post by myheart on Nov 17, 2013 12:24:28 GMT -5
I sit here with very few words to write. I have shared it all before, the tears, the heartache, the physical pain that comes with missing them. I can't believe that it has been 8 years since I found this sight and poured my heart out to strangers who were the only ones that could ever understand. I struggle with my life without him and other times it just seems to be moving forward. I think I hate the moving forward more then the pain. How could I live without him? How can I function? This day is so hard, it surrounds the holidays with Halloween just finished, Thanksgiving coming up and of course Christmas. All without my Clyde. There is a dullness in these days that I carry. I was finally able to get my first Christmas tree last year. I cried so hard at the Christmas Tree lot missing him. I hate having to experience anything good without him. He was the most handsome, intelligent, adorably fussy, sweetest, charming love of my life. My heart is not full without him. My life is not full without him. The days leading up to this day are like blocking ocean waves as you walk into the water. I felt waves of pain and emotion would hit me and I would have to stand back up and keep walking. They got closer and closer together until now this day is here. Only those here can understand that you can't really express this grief. I know most everyone is gone and doesn't come here anymore, but I needed to reach out to someone who would understand the pain of this day as only we can.
I miss you so much my best boy in the whole world, times a million, trillion, thousands and one. Mommy loves her Clyde every moment of every day for the rest of her life.
I miss you so much my best boy in the whole world, times a million, trillion, thousands and one. Mommy loves her Clyde every moment of every day for the rest of her life.
