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Post by Deleted on Oct 9, 2013 10:40:48 GMT -5
Hi there, I have never written on anything like this before but feel as if I need to talk. After finding out I was pregnant me and my boyfriend were quite shocked but after it sank in really happy, we're both 23 and have been together for over 6 years so everything seemed to be perfect. We didn't tell anyone that I was pregnant just incase and wanted to hit the 12 week mark to be safe. At around 11 weeks I started spotting then thinking the worst googled, which makes everything seem bad. This carried on for a few days then we went to the epu at hospital and the scan showed a complete miscarriage..nothing. I would have been 12 weeks the next day and seeing all those happy couple with pictures of their babies made it worse. What's worse was when I get home I had received my first scan for the following week.
At first I kind of hid my feelings as I'm not one to cry in front of anyone, but this was in July and now everything seems to have gotten to me, I don't really speak to my partner about it as I feel ashamed especially when he tells me his friends in work their girlfriends are pregnant. I feel so angry stupid things like why me and resentful that they're giving their partners a baby and I couldn't fit that role. I'm sorry for the rant and the long message but feel like a weight has been lifted to share this with someone as none of our families know. thank you, Maria. :-)
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Post by triangelmom on Oct 12, 2013 20:14:22 GMT -5
Maria, I am so sorry for your loss. I know you feel like you don't have much support around you but you found us here and you can get a lot of support from people who have been through a similar experience. I have had three losses and I got more support from people in online pregnancy loss support groups than in 'real life.'
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