May I borrow this idea from all you?

[jezebel]

My son's brthday is tomorrow
I am going to borrow a idea off of some of the people posted here, I am going to buy some Black and Red ballons and release then at 4:45 when David came into this world I am going to write on a card and see how far they get. Life still is hard at times and I sometimes wonder why but I was told by a preacher he is kin that maybe somehere in his life was something he couodn't handle maybe we all think he could of handled our father's death but maybe he coulodn't, I don't have a day go by I don't think f my son talk to him and I think people would think I am bookers I don't care I seem to think the futher I am away from when David died it IS getting easier I miss my son more then word can tell but he is not far I se him every day in the picture we have on the wall and I still buy things for his mock grave, I have had no one tell me I am sick a.. I reckon you do get a little off something you are not the same but my normal is gone and never will be the same, I still find I have bouts of I can't believe this isn't a dream and David WILL walk throught th door or call me but in my heart I know it is so. Maybe I still cling to hoping he is somehwere I know he should of called but I didn't see his body I didn't want this to be the last thing to see David and have that in mind and be in my nightmares, or having it huant me all my days, I know David would understand why I didn't ID his body There was no one else that it could of been. Well enough babling I thought I would let you all know and what I am to do I hope all you don't mind be borrowing thie from all you.


Rhayden

[lindac]

Releasing balloons can be very comforting. You could also prepare a dinner or a special food that David liked. Itnever gets easier but it does get gentler though we all have those knock you down to your knees days. I will burn a special candle for David tomorrow. Hugs.

[jezebel]

I got black star ballons yesterday, I released them a little after I got home with them I had to do some things and would not be able to let them go at his birth time. I watched them for a time but went to put his other two ballons on his mock grave a black Happy birthday ballon that had a lot of different colours on it and a camo star Ballon he loved Camo. they are on his Mock grave now. When I went to his mock grave I turned around to see the black star ballons I figured I would see them way high up but they were no where in sight I can't believe they went that fast. Like he had them pulling them up HUH? I put a little note on the string telling where ever they may land to go on facebook and tell me where the ballons landed. I hope they get far. I didn't give a address there are so many bad people in the world and ID theifs I didn't want to give them a chance but on Facebook my real name is not used and I feel safer to have them on it. Thanks I know David is happy in Heaven he doesn't have to watch after mom or dad and can finally have a life even if it has to be in Heaven. He is his own boss now.

Rhayden