been gone for a time

[jezebel]

Ya know I don't want to sound like I don't need this site I really do but this was the first time I thought I was handling this well but I get to thinking about David and the thoughts of why didn't he break the window and get out I know this I should not dwell on but it was right by his bed and so simple. I know we are thinking of everything that he might of did to cause him not to break the window and why he didn't go back to his room panic dad talking back and forth with David and it just goes on. There is nothing that is gonna change the out come of this event, But if only a few answers I have not dreamed of David but 2 times I had hoped I could find out what happened and why he didn't break the window but then again he may not remember it either I don't know how much he would recall it was not violent and he was not shot or anything that sudden but how can I move on and these question I just can't get answers to.

[fonfont color="2c7cc4"][/t size="7"] I sometimes wish my death would of been instead of his he had so much to do in his life why wasn't it me instead of him [/font]


Rhayden

[joan]

Hi Rhayden - the "what ifs" or "if onlys" are hard. There will always be some unanswered questions, some times when we try to imagine our child's last hours and they did or did not do this or that, or why we or someone else did or did not do this or that. It is part of the grieving and a hard part. In time you will come to accept and wonder less. Do what you can to celebrate his life.
(((((((hugs))))))

Joan