Post by ozv on Jul 11, 2013 5:22:57 GMT -5
Let me start by saying that I am very glad to have found this forum. It is hard it seems to find understanding in such situations..
My short story- 2 kids at home, loving family, DH not really wanting any more kids, me - secretly wanting the 3rd...7 days ago I collapsed and fainted at home with abdominal pains and symptoms (of what we thought) was food poisoning. Due to the doctors' negligence my further symptoms of sharp pains in the shoulders area and uncontrollable shaking were largely ignored at the Emergency rooms for 5 hours.. Eventually, someone had an epiphany and I was diagnosed with ectopic pregnancy which was quickly confirmed with blood tests and Ultrasound. Due to internal bleeding cased by the raptured tube, I lost 3.5 L of blood, which is nearly all of it. In the nick of time, I got the blood transfusion. Luckily I survived, which I can hardly believe now, I never though of myself as particularly strong or fit woman.. The doctors said to thank my 'lucky stars', I didn't even know I had any:)
Funnily, I had no sign of pregnancy, not one - no bleeding or spotting, normal periods, no cravings, no morning sickness, and I was on Mini-Pill (progestin only)... I never knew that you can just collapse and die like this.. My husband thought I was falling asleep whilst I was sleeping in and out of conciseness whilst at home.. We even considered to 'sleep it off" at home. Fools..
Apart from coming to terms with the near death experience, bad treatment by the medical stuff and doctor's negligent delay in my treatment - I also grief the baby that never had a chance. My right tube was also removed.. That is true, men perhaps wouldn't understand it. My DH says - "it wasn't really a baby", but to me it was a life that came into my body and existed for a brief period of time even though I didn't know.. When the doctor first said "you are pregnant" on the operating table - I was hugely surprised but happy, I even asked if the baby would survive this "food poisoning" -but then I was advised it was ectopic... so no chance of course.
My DH says to me- you are experiencing post-traumatic stress to do with you near death, you have to be grateful with what you have and with the kids you have at home.. Of course, I am grateful. But the sadness and horror of that night overtakes me.
Will we have a chance of a normal pregnancy? Will we in fact be given or take such opportunity and will we have the strength.. time will tell. Time will heal and I know God will show me the reason for all this happening.
Thank you
My short story- 2 kids at home, loving family, DH not really wanting any more kids, me - secretly wanting the 3rd...7 days ago I collapsed and fainted at home with abdominal pains and symptoms (of what we thought) was food poisoning. Due to the doctors' negligence my further symptoms of sharp pains in the shoulders area and uncontrollable shaking were largely ignored at the Emergency rooms for 5 hours.. Eventually, someone had an epiphany and I was diagnosed with ectopic pregnancy which was quickly confirmed with blood tests and Ultrasound. Due to internal bleeding cased by the raptured tube, I lost 3.5 L of blood, which is nearly all of it. In the nick of time, I got the blood transfusion. Luckily I survived, which I can hardly believe now, I never though of myself as particularly strong or fit woman.. The doctors said to thank my 'lucky stars', I didn't even know I had any:)
Funnily, I had no sign of pregnancy, not one - no bleeding or spotting, normal periods, no cravings, no morning sickness, and I was on Mini-Pill (progestin only)... I never knew that you can just collapse and die like this.. My husband thought I was falling asleep whilst I was sleeping in and out of conciseness whilst at home.. We even considered to 'sleep it off" at home. Fools..
Apart from coming to terms with the near death experience, bad treatment by the medical stuff and doctor's negligent delay in my treatment - I also grief the baby that never had a chance. My right tube was also removed.. That is true, men perhaps wouldn't understand it. My DH says - "it wasn't really a baby", but to me it was a life that came into my body and existed for a brief period of time even though I didn't know.. When the doctor first said "you are pregnant" on the operating table - I was hugely surprised but happy, I even asked if the baby would survive this "food poisoning" -but then I was advised it was ectopic... so no chance of course.
My DH says to me- you are experiencing post-traumatic stress to do with you near death, you have to be grateful with what you have and with the kids you have at home.. Of course, I am grateful. But the sadness and horror of that night overtakes me.
Will we have a chance of a normal pregnancy? Will we in fact be given or take such opportunity and will we have the strength.. time will tell. Time will heal and I know God will show me the reason for all this happening.
Thank you
