did you question your faith

[jezebel]

I wonder if anyone here lost their faith or questioned their faith as to how this could happen to their child.

I didn't question my faith I just thought it is something that happens I was very mad and wondered why this could happen to my son he was so good but my sister tried to get me to understand it was a awful accident no one set it no one did anything to cause this but you can't help to think why.

My life is not the same I don't think of my son the first thing but he is thought of every day do you think of your child every day yet and if I don't think of him every day would this be bad?

I have made friends with my son's friends I don't know who would want to hang with the mother of the friend they had but they seem to be willing I asked them if they would like to talk with me I would be honored if they would consider me a friend which I think they have.

I could understand if they didn't but have you become friends with your child's friends. I didn't do this to have some sort of link to my son I wanted this because I just thought we could be friends nothing more.

The next time I am in PA I will most like join them and hang around with them for some time they miss me already. My son and I were more like best friends and though we knew our place it was not how most parent are. I liked a lot of stuff he like the music he liked and the video games he played. sometime I feel my life is meaningless without my son but I know he would not want me sad my father or mother wouldn't want me to be sad either. they were right (who ever they are that said this) life is to short. Shorter for some ore then others.


Rhayden

[grieving55]

I absolutely questioned my faith. It's hard to understand how God could take a child - it's every parent's worst nightmare.

[jezebel]

how did you keep your faith? I don't worship the Christain God but I feel like my spirit is broke and it can't be fixed. I don't know it is like something is missing (there is) but it like I can't find it a trying to find it in a big sea. Understand? I don't know where it went or how to get it back or if I will ever get it back, I suppose one day I will find it (my son) I think, or could it be that he is 600 mile away and this might be not so much if I lived closer. I recently put more fake flowers on his mock grave I even talk to him as he is at the mock grave I am sure he hears me even so. he has been around here I know messing with us turning things on and making thing like a from that is a motion sensor go of or a fish that sings go off or both at the same time but no one is in the room. He loved to make people laugh. I think that is what he is doingtrying to make us laugh. I wish I could of traded places with him or been there so the fire wouldn't of happened or at the very least got David out but I fool myself at time wishing he would walk through one of them doors and say I have been ..... and came to you knowing the fire and dad and eveerything but I know in my heart he is not going to and I think one day I will stop wishing this well maybe I will.

Rhayden