Approaching 5yrs, haven't posted for a long time

[elenasmom]

May 20th will be 5 years since our son was born, I used to post here quite frequently but it's been awhile. I can't believe so much time has passed.
Life and work can be so stressful at times so much so that I barely have time to think.
Maybe that's a good thing because when I'm busy I can keep my mind off of how I really feel. It's been 8 years since our first baby girl died, and only recently did I realize that I don't laugh or smile the same. Things are so different now.
I don't handle stress in the best way, I have lost weight, can barely eat, and am so very tired, life can be hard to handle at times.
There are days when you want to scream at everyone around you, people who make such a big deal of everything, who can't let things go.
I miss my babies dearly and can't wait to hold them again.
Only then will life make sense again, only then will I feel normal, only then will I laugh and smile like I once did.

[icerayven]

Hugs! Each day can be hard without your little ones..I know words can't describe how you feel. I hope time goes gentle and remember you aren't alone. I know I have been more serious and less likely to laugh or smile since our loss. You change and people who never lost a baby can ever understand that.

[pocooso]

Life is never quite the same, but I make an effort to find at least some joy in life for the sake of my other children. It is bad enough that my daughter lost her sister.. I just want her to be happy. All that I do, I do for her, and in doing so, I help myself. I see her thriving, and I focus on that. My life is so busy, too. Not much time to visit here, though this is the only place that understands.

Wish things were easier for all of us.