I Need to WHINE!!!**Update**

[judiann]

Poor pitfical me ......

When you walk in the door of Hospice....everything about life changes.

Who you are, who you were, eveything you ever thought about yourself......all gone.

What now??

A Bad , nasty day. The Next person that gives me a hard time about my mom?? I'll just sign her over to them......

I can already see him/her racing outta the building!!!

Having hard timr here....

Love ya all,
judiann

Weds. A.M.

Mom is HOME....she spent 11 days in the hospital, sent to RB, then hospice until yesterday when she decided she was leaving AMA...gonna sign herself Out & LOOSE ALL her Medicare & Medicaid benefits...
And there was Nothing I could do to stop her....I don't have power of attorney...{yet}

Dad got the doctors to keep her one more day, as his nerves are shot to h*ll, he's an emotional wreck because she was coming back home & she's meaner then ever....she's just plain Hateful, Evil....determined to die before his eyes, in a house she despises.

I'm very angry & bitter towards her right now. That fine line between Love & Hate has almost disappeared....

I just hope & pray that she doesn't kill him with all this stress...
she can't walk, can barely feed herself, refuses her meds, can't change her own messy diapers & a whole bunch more stuff but...I've already said too much & making myself sick over it.

I Promised my Dad I would Not let this happen IF I had anything to say about it. I'm heart sick because I don't....

gotta go...

[joan]

Whine away sweetie, hope it helps. The trip you are on right now is, to say the least, no fun.

Some one giving u a bad time about ur mum??? No mercy!

hope on a rope (with a knot) on the way

love and hugs

Joan

[lindac]

((((((((((((((((((((((((Judiann)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Whining is most definitely allowed but I don't think that is whining. All you can do is the best you can do at any given moment. Nobody can judge because they aren't in your shoes right now. It is very difficult to have someone in Hospice. It is just a waiting game. If you have any old dishes or if you are wanting a new set, this could be the time to put some energy into breaking them. It might relieve some of the tension.

We are here. Hang onto that rope. You WILL get through this. It will be tough but you are a survivor.

Sending tons of hugs.

[judiann]

After reading that Update again....

I mentioned to her that today would be 9 years since Melvin died.....she said "So what"....

Guess it's good that my heart can not be damaged by her anymore....

still aches for my son tho

[lindac]

((((((((((((((((((((((((((Judiann))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

I am so sorry that your mom is making things even harder. It is sad that she won't get to see her grandson in Heaven. Hopefully she will enjoy heat though I'm not sure the devil will want her.

Nine years is such a long time yet also so very short. My heart and my prayers are with you. I am lighting a candle for Melvin.

Tons of hugs.

[joan]

oh judiann - what a crazy decision by your mum. No, there was nothing you could do. I hear your concern for your dad and for yourself. Her comment about Melvin's anniversary was vicious.

I totally understand that you are angry and bitter. She is making this harder than necessary on everyone, including herself. Please look after you the best you can.

My love and prayers are with you.

(((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))

Joan