I'm not new to this site, just 'this' board..

[mistygrl70]

I'm not sure if anyone remembers me but I joined here about 7 1/2 years ago after a miscarriage. I graduated to trying/pregnant/moms after loss.

Suddenly, I find myself here.. lost again in that painful world of child loss.

Last January my Caitlin gave birth to a beautiful baby boy, who was born with hypopituitaryism (sp) & other issues.

After extended stay in Toronto Sick Kids.. and brain surgery in April, we were told with medication he could lead a very normal life.

Because of all the sedation and problems Mayson was developmentally delayed, but they assured my daughter he would/could catch up & they guesstimated he was about 6 months behind.

Nov 22nd of this year, my daughter awoke to find him gone. His death was ruled SIDS. Because of his delay developmentally even though he was 10 months he was more like 4-5 months.

We are reeling, she's soo lost. He was her first baby, it was only the 2 of them. Mayson's father stayed apart of his life and the 2 of them got along for the sake of their child.

I don't know how to help her. I have advised her to come here, she needs to know she's not alone that no she's not crazy for the feelings and thoughts she keeps tryin to suppress with various of aides like alcohol & other things..

I worry & I hurt for her. She remembers the amount of support and incredible healing that occurred within me after finding this site so long ago.

Please keep her in your thoughts and prayers, she's struggling badly.

xoxo

Darlene

[mistygrl70]

.. i guess there's no one or not many here.. that is a good thing.

Merry Christmas! I will find us some support elsewhere... God Bless.

[Janis]

((Darlene))

Not sure what promted me to come on here tonight? But, here I am reading this. I do remember you. I often wonder how the "old members" are doing? I know alot of people have gone to the facebook version of SG. Some of the ladies here may just be off line because of Christmas.

I am so sorry for yours and Caitlins loss. I hope she does get help and support, if not here else where. You and your family will be in my prayers!

((HUGS))
Janis

[dawn]

((((Darlene))))))) I am so so sorry for Caitlin's and your whole family's loss. I don't normally check this board, but I too, felt prompted to today. I am so very sorry. I was actually thinking about you a month ago, you were heavy on my heart but I wasn't sure how to get a hold of you. I will pm you with my email. Miss you, girl!