Post by jezebel on Nov 26, 2012 9:22:53 GMT -5
I am tire of not having my son gone and I don't want to do this anymore I want my son to be in NC with me in the flesh and it is not fair he was taken so soon (SHAKES FIST UP HIGH IN AIR) my son was the best, and all he ever did was be good to all do everything he could for people and animals he didn't deserve to die in a fire and be burnt up so bad, it was unfair to have him die and be put in a body bag, we put a red comforter around him but still IN A BODY BAG 
? how disrespectful is that. When I was told I just wept it is not hard enough that he was gone but insult to injury that is.
I want to get off this road of woe and back to where my son was alive I DON'T"T WANT TO DO THIS ANY MORE!!!!!!! LET ME OFF AT THE NEXT STOP LET ME SEE MY SON AGAIN AT MY FRONT DOOR HAPPY AND ALIVE.
I want all this if and and and's to stop some times I think I am having a mental break down with all the stuff that goes through my mind of why the heck he didn't just go out the window and how dad made it to the front door without falling and why the house had to catch on fire in the first place.
Why could at least my son get out I had told him many times to go break out the window and he could go get dad.
WHY WHY WHY didn't he do this?!!!!
I thought Thanks giving would be hard for me but it was easier then I thought I am felling guilty of not mourning he was not with us the last time I saw him in the flesh was a few days after thanksgiving last year when I was out to my uncle's funeral which he was put in the ground before I was out.
It is not fair and I will say this many time over and most likely till my day number comes up it is not fair David died before me it is not fair you are not to put your kids in the ground before you are gone they are to put you in the ground.
I Know I have not been here long but thank for listening to me my husband gets tired of me saying about my son and he tries I know but he doesn't understand I know and doesn't know what it is like to have your child die I am glad I can write anything down here that I feel and I will not have anyone cross with me.
Thanks you
Rhayden
? how disrespectful is that. When I was told I just wept it is not hard enough that he was gone but insult to injury that is.I want to get off this road of woe and back to where my son was alive I DON'T"T WANT TO DO THIS ANY MORE!!!!!!! LET ME OFF AT THE NEXT STOP LET ME SEE MY SON AGAIN AT MY FRONT DOOR HAPPY AND ALIVE.
I want all this if and and and's to stop some times I think I am having a mental break down with all the stuff that goes through my mind of why the heck he didn't just go out the window and how dad made it to the front door without falling and why the house had to catch on fire in the first place.
Why could at least my son get out I had told him many times to go break out the window and he could go get dad.
WHY WHY WHY didn't he do this?
!!!!I thought Thanks giving would be hard for me but it was easier then I thought I am felling guilty of not mourning he was not with us the last time I saw him in the flesh was a few days after thanksgiving last year when I was out to my uncle's funeral which he was put in the ground before I was out.
It is not fair and I will say this many time over and most likely till my day number comes up it is not fair David died before me it is not fair you are not to put your kids in the ground before you are gone they are to put you in the ground.
I Know I have not been here long but thank for listening to me my husband gets tired of me saying about my son and he tries I know but he doesn't understand I know and doesn't know what it is like to have your child die I am glad I can write anything down here that I feel and I will not have anyone cross with me.
Thanks you
Rhayden