Post by justlostanangel on Nov 24, 2012 18:11:06 GMT -5
Went to the doctor earlier this week; gotta love it when they draw blood (5 vials!!), & then all they can tell you, & I quote the dr here "It's viral, you're screwed!" After a week of being stuck in bed & trying to stay hydrated with all this sinus medicine I've been on, I finally have a voice, but still feel weak. When I stepped on the scale @ the office, I was shocked!! I'd gained about 15 pounds since I last weighed; that made no sense since all I've been able to keep down was jello & a few crackers. Plus, some of my clothes have been loose. Anyway, one of the ladies I work with is close to my age, & she had a check-up earlier this month; she said that her labs showed she's going through menopause. With the irregularity of AF since the 2nd m/c, sleep issues, etc, I'm wondering if I am too. In January I'll be 40; never really thought of that as old, but perhaps from a fertility standpoint, for me at least, maybe it is. I keep putting off going through all the stuff in the attic (cloth diapers, baby clothes, etc), because part of me is clinging to the hope of having another baby. But then another part wonders if I'm holding onto a false hope; but I also know that "all things are possible" for God.I'm just a jumbled up mess at the moment!
I know some time soon I need to make a decision, & stick with it...but I just can't seem to right now! Anyway, thanks for letting me ramble......hope everyone's having a good weekend!