7 years today + hope for mothers newly lost

[jeanette]

Today was the 7th anniversary of losing my first daughter, Kailey Rose, I was 38 weeks pregnant and during my last doctor's visit before a scheduled c-section (she was breached) found out there was no heartbeat, due to a cord accident. I could not imagine delivering her naturally, so we scheduled to have her taken out by c-section...I was so scared, I didn't want to see her, my husband said "she's really cute, look at her" I did and then held her...the weeks and months following was so dark, I didn't think I could get through it...I did get pregnant 3 months later and delivered little Elizabeth 11 months later, but I still mourned the loss of Kailey, I couldn't believe this could happen...I went to support groups and met a couple of friends who I am close to till this day. My marriage ended when lizzie was 18 months old...I felt he had moved on emotionally & could not understand why I was still sad & we fought often. He didn't go to support groups with me because he was always working & after we seperated, he was not interested in going to the cemetery.
Well, to my surprise, he called today and asked when we were going to the cemetery (he knows we always go on the anniversary). He waited there for us & he, lizzie, my mom, and I released 7 pink and white balloons. It was such a special moment. He never forgot about her but in time was able to be there emotionally. He said to lizzie, "hold your mom's hand"....
To moms who have recently lost a baby, give it time & never lose hope because with time, it does get easier and you never know who God will bring back into your life when you need it most xoxo