(((((Michele)))))(((((Amanda)))))

[jaredsmommyforever]

Dearest Michele,

Thinking of you and all that you went through in losing your precious Amanda. Sending you gentle and healing thoughts and prayers on this sad day. Hoping the blessings of her life wash over you today and always, and that she sends you a tangible sign that reminds you she is close by.

xoxo,

Denise

[pamela]

(((((Michele))))

Thinking of you and Amanda today and hoping that she wraps her beautiful angel wings around you and let's you know she misses you but is happy and free of pain in Heaven and waiting for the day when your reunited as mother and daughter.

Love always
Pam

[sarahsmommy]

Prayers for a gentle day Michelle.
Kathy

[myangelamanda]

Thank you for remembering. Seems as though less and less remember the more time that passes. Yesterday I could count on my hands (and not use all fingers) the number of people who remembered and said something or wrote something to me. A true new reality ... a new feeling of despair and depression ... A new kind of sadness has enveloped me that hasn't in the past ... I know 8 years, to some not a part of this club, is a long time. As we all know 8 years is but the beginning of this life without our child. I was actually so sad last night that people, who in the past remembered, seemed to have forgotten ... just going about and living their lives with all their children by their side.

I picked up some mums and pumpkins to decorate Amanda's area. Several people at the store commented on "what a lovely selection I made" and that "it is going to look so pretty" ... little do they know where I was bringing all that stuff. I couldn't even smile and acknowledge their compliments... all I could think was "if you only knew why I'm buying all this and who it's for you'd just leave me alone and keep it to yourself".

Thank you Denise, Pam and Kathy for your thoughts and prayers. I am just so sad and haven't felt this way ever in this whole journey. I'm not even made or angry ... I am defeated. Beyond sad I guess. Plus ... it's THE year. That year we've all talked about when our child is gone as long as they were alive. I don't know what else to say or write ... thank you, though, for remembering.

xox

[judiann]

((((((Michelle)))))

sorry to be late but does it really matter?? my thoughts & prayers are Always with you....

defeated...beyond sad. what an awful place to be....

we hear it get "better" over time.....what a lie.
i think it gets harder...

the crushing weight of our heartbreak, our loss...seems to slam into us now....the sadness is almost unbearable.

8 years....me too

((((((hugs)))))))& love ya,
judiann

[jaredsmommyforever]

Michele,

I am so sorry to hear how you are feeling, but I know it well. Eight years is am eternity, and sadly a lifetime. I remember when Jared was gone longer than he was alive, which so sadly came very quickly, and then I counted when he was gone twice as long, and then three times as long... I hate even writing that-- to me it is a travesty that it is true. Sickening.

Anyway, I am sorry you have the call to be here, but I was glad you checked in and knew I was thinking and caring about you.

I am always here for you, no matter what you are going through.

xoxo

[jaredsmommyforever]

P.S. Hi Pam, Kathy and Judiann. My old friends. Hugs to you all.

[missingisaiah]

((((((((HUGS))))))) I am sorry I've been so wrapped up in my grief the past few days I was late expressing my sorrow for you.
Since 3.4 weeks after he died, Isaiah had been dead as long as he had been alive, I can't fully relate to how much extra pain this year must have been, but I do understand how alone it can feel not to have people remember.

[jaredsmommyforever]

Hi to you too, Brenda. Sorry to hear things have been so rough for you as well.