Excited and scared and many more

[beeky1981]

3 years ago I got pregnant and had a miscarriage. 3 years later and I am just now able to not cry everyday and be depressed. I got pregnant by someone that did not care about me and was absolutly horrible to me when he found out I was pregnant. It was very hard to go through by myself.
I am now with a wonderful guy that is amazing and I could not ask for anyone better in my life. The beginning of this month we have started trying to have a little one. This causes so many emotions for me and I am having a little trouble dealing with them. My baby that is in heaven due date was Aug 23. I celebrate that as my angel's b-day. Which we all know is right around the corner. I am overwhelmed with emotions of that day coming up and then the excitment of trying to have a little one. I am scared because the hurt and pain I endured with losing my angel, I don''t want to go through that again. I just wish I could relax and "go with the flow" of everything in trying to concieve, however, it scares the h*ll out of me. I want a family more than anything and I don't know if I could mentally go through another miscarriage. The only thing I hold on to is I have a wonderful man by my side that will be there for me 100% and I truly feel blessed by that. I am just wondering how to cope with all of the different emotions. How do you not worry and freak out that something could happen again?

[justlostanangel]

{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}} It may sound brutal, but honestly, you really can't not worry....you just have to do your best to contain it, & not let it overwhelm!! I know that next week will be hard to get through; please know that if you need to talk, vent, cry, whatever...do it!! We're here for you if you need us!! Hoping you have great success with ttc, & a rainbow baby in 9 months!

[BubbyandBooboosmommy]

((Beeky)) Thinking of you today. This day will always be difficult; however, over time the wounds will become less raw. I miscarried on June 11, 2003. On that day I try to take off work and pamper myself a little bit. Take the time you need today and know that you are not alone.

[Sam]

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