Lmnop
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Fear
Jul 11, 2012 0:39:59 GMT -5
Post by Lmnop on Jul 11, 2012 0:39:59 GMT -5
So afraid to name him. We're planning to name him after my dad but there's that part of me that doesn't want to name him that in utero and then end up losing the name too, if that makes any sense. If he is named after my dad and we end up losing him, that makes it all the more painful.
I'm feeling so detached from this pregnancy...I felt so bonded with my first and with my angel baby even. But with this one, it's hard to even feel excited when he kicks. Don't get me wrong, I want this baby...but I think I'm really just being held back by fear from being emotionally invested at this point. The last year was so gruesome, from the miscarriage to the months of complications from that to getting pregnant with this rainbow baby only to have serious hematoma/bedrest complications (4 ER visits in one year...the ER nurses know me by sight now). I just can't trust my body anymore and it makes it hard to believe this is going to turn out well.
Maybe getting past the one year anniversary (next Monday) will help? Getting past the due date was very healing.
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Fear
Jul 11, 2012 2:03:15 GMT -5
Post by marianne on Jul 11, 2012 2:03:15 GMT -5
its so hard for those us in this situation. my friend was telling me just today she wouldnt even tell the delivery staff his name- she just didnt believe. but of course he was perfect anyway !
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