Really missing him

[missingisaiah]

Of course I miss Isaiah EVERY SINGLE DAY, but as we all know, some days the grief is sharper, harder to bare. That's the place I've been in for the past week.
I just want my baby back. I want to have all 3 children with me, not just 2. I want to see how Tabatha and John interact with their big brother.
I want to hold him, kiss him. I want him to drive me stark raving mad just like his little sister and brother do sometimes.

[myangelamanda]

(((((((Brenda)))))))))

I'm so sorry your days have been a bit more emotionally challenging. I want Isaiah back for you and your family!! It's just wrong that you or any of us even have to know this type of pain. No one should ever be without any of their children. It's a living torturous h*ll we all live in ... day after day after day ... it really is a mental and physical torture that no words can ever do justice conveying the level of pain we experience every.single.day.

(((((((big hugs))))))) and I hope the grief wave subsides because they can really be debilitating when they are full force.

xox