5 years

[Sydneysmom]

Tomorrow...sigh...just can't believe it. Ugh
We'll be sending off green lanterns to Sydney, tomorrow night, if weather at the beach permits. I've never been very much into ceremonial things, but I think it will be good for all of us, especially seeing how Celeste and Jet will enjoy it. I just wish I could see Sydney's face light up too...

[myangelamanda]

(((((((((((((((Angela))))))))))))))))))))))

It's supposed to pour here tomorrow ... but as luck would have it we have a green lantern ... well sort of ... it's a green firefly lantern that actually both Ryan and Kristin have so we really have two!! And ... guess what I'm doing with them tomorrow? It's not a beach ... but it is coming from my heart to yours. ((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))) Sweet sweet Sydney always brings a smile to my face when I see her picture. I am sure her face is all lit up just knowing how much she is loved.

xox
~michele

[weeblemom]

What a sweet little face!!! I hope the weather was beautiful! (((Hugs)))

[Sydneysmom]

Michele! Thank you so much! You have no idea how much that meant to me. We actually didn't get to send off the lanterns...Jet and Celeste had a wonderful time at the beach though, so it was special. But I still feel like I haven't done anything for Sydney...I've been distancing myself from remembering her, her sweetness...oh well, we survived it anyway.
I miss her so.

Michele, how are Ryan and Kristin? How are you?

Weeblemom, I love Weeble's precious smile! He's so handsome!

[missingisaiah]

So sorry I missed seeing this post. On Wed. last week husband got laid off from work .(and since I'm laid off too, not good!) A few friends chipped in to give us gas money so we could go to PA and upstate NY to visit my family before the job search starts in earnest. This is the first time since early last week I've been able to get on this site.
I hope the day was as gentle as possible.
For some reason I found the 5th anniversary of Isaiah's death so so hard.
I wish Sydney was still here with you.

[myangelamanda]

(((((Angela))))))

I love that you went to to the beach with Celeste and Jet!! I think that is such a special way to celebrate not only Sydney's life, but also celebrate Jet and Celeste at the same time (which I am sure had you smiling a TON which is EXACTLY what Sydney would want her mommy to do)!! I have this strange warm feeling in my heart just thinking about that day and you all at the beach ... it's so poetic too really ... I know ... this is just me, though, but think about it ... the ocean ... the ebb and flow of the tide ... the vastness of both the beach and the ocean yet the comfort of it ... the knowing what it's doing and the unknown of what it has possibly done ... it's just like our own grief and our lives ... the known ... the unknown ... the scary part ... the fun part ... I don't know ... I find it to be a perfect place for remembering our children. I look so forward to going because it truly is the one place where I can smile yet I can also think and reflect. OK. I know. Maybe a bit much ~

My kids are really doing well. Thanks for asking about them. They're all in school and enjoying it tremendously. They're really so sweet and so good for me and to me. I was honored to light their firefly lanterns ~ They actually looked so pretty on the table in the family room all lit up.

Don't be a stranger!! I am probably one of only a small segment of the world who does not have a facebook. I'm sticking to it ... for now

xox

[jaredsmommyforever]

Sweet Angela,

I have not been here in a long time-- strange for me-- so I didn't see this until now. I am so sorry. I want to be here for you. I am glad you got through it. So, so hard. But I too know how much Sydney is loved, and I know that she knows it.

Michele, you are not exactly the last person not on Facebook!!!

Hugs to you all!