Healthylife4 Tori
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A bear ever how hard he tries grows tubby without excerise- Winnie the Pooh
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Post by Healthylife4 Tori on Apr 11, 2012 22:24:20 GMT -5
I never for once take for granted for my blessings I have. And i have happy days. But...... its always there.- the fact I will never get back what I have lost.  Sometimes I feel like I'm in huge denial of how many losses I have had. I titled my post like that because grief seems like a job or chore. I keep thinking one day I'm just going to wake up and have a healthy pregnancy.- wrong!!!  Total Denial. |
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Post by dawn on Apr 12, 2012 8:34:40 GMT -5
((((Tori))))) Though there will be times when the grief seems to fade, those babies were/are your children. They were, and always will be, a part of you. I've found that even when they seem to be so far from my mind, it doesn't take more than a fleeting thought, a picture or even a word from someone, and they are right back in my thoughts. They are our forever children and they cannot be forgotten.
Much love to you today, dear friend.
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Healthylife4 Tori
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A bear ever how hard he tries grows tubby without excerise- Winnie the Pooh
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Post by Healthylife4 Tori on Apr 12, 2012 20:03:10 GMT -5
Thank you Dawn, It is so nice to have someone validate thats it ok to still remember. I havent had my rainbow baby yet so im sure the misconception I have about being all better will make sense later. I see all my friends here that remember their babies long after they have their rainbow baby. Its been hard for me to accept that I will never just be pregnant I will have to take shots, go to a high risk dr. Which im willing to do all that. I appericate your words. Its so nice to have a friend that reminded me its ok.  Sometimes it seems like the real world doesnt understand that i havent given up on trying. - considering my age and all. |
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Post by justlostanangel on Apr 13, 2012 20:17:48 GMT -5
{{{{{{Tori}}}}}} Just because you miss the babies you've lost doesn't mean you don't appreciate the child you have! It seems like sometimes its odd, random things that will "get" you....and I think that's OK! A mother's love doesn't end just b/c her pregnancy did; a mother's love is eternal! Sometimes grief is a job; a gut-wrenching, heartbreaking job with no pay or benefits.....or time off. It's hard to know whether or not to continue trying for a rainbow baby. Please know that I'm here if you ever need me!
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Healthylife4 Tori
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A bear ever how hard he tries grows tubby without excerise- Winnie the Pooh
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Post by Healthylife4 Tori on Apr 14, 2012 13:48:44 GMT -5
Thank you Just lost a angel. The same goes for you.- I took yesterday harder than normal because i turned 40. But today I dont know, I have renewed faith again. I think im accepting im high risk.- I had a dream last night cannot remember the details but in the dream I was expecting and pretty far along. So I suppose it cheered me up.- ((hugs to you also.))
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Sometimes it seems like the real world doesnt understand that i havent given up on trying. - considering my age and all.