Post by lostmom on Mar 14, 2012 18:21:43 GMT -5
I almost posted yesterday. Probably should have. The last couple of days have been good 
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Today...
Aaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh 
It started out good. We are having amazing weather. I was cleaning up my flower bed and checking all my new buds. My dh was out back with the kids and talking to the neighbor. And then. Then I went in to wash up and my dh was already in the kitchen. I was chatting about this and that and then mentioned something about the neighbors new haircut and how I didn't think it worked for her and then he said "She's pregnant."
It felt like a ton of bricks had just been dropped on me. I'd been working so hard on that wall. Building it up as quickly as I could so I didn't hear about or see pregnant women. Ignoring those little twinges that catch you off guard and make you think "oh...I wonder if I am!". See it's been hard enough with my DIL expecting and I keep my conversations with her short. I really don't mean to be rude, it's just too much for me. But now my neighbor, too? And now that's it's warm out this is when we see each other all the time.
I went to my room and cried again. My dh held me. I told him it wasn't fair. He said he knows. I cried some more. And then as quickly as I could I started to put that wall back together. I still have over 3 weeks of waiting. It feels like an eternity.
.Today...
Aaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh
It started out good. We are having amazing weather. I was cleaning up my flower bed and checking all my new buds. My dh was out back with the kids and talking to the neighbor. And then. Then I went in to wash up and my dh was already in the kitchen. I was chatting about this and that and then mentioned something about the neighbors new haircut and how I didn't think it worked for her and then he said "She's pregnant."
It felt like a ton of bricks had just been dropped on me. I'd been working so hard on that wall. Building it up as quickly as I could so I didn't hear about or see pregnant women. Ignoring those little twinges that catch you off guard and make you think "oh...I wonder if I am!". See it's been hard enough with my DIL expecting and I keep my conversations with her short. I really don't mean to be rude, it's just too much for me. But now my neighbor, too? And now that's it's warm out this is when we see each other all the time.
I went to my room and cried again. My dh held me. I told him it wasn't fair. He said he knows. I cried some more. And then as quickly as I could I started to put that wall back together. I still have over 3 weeks of waiting. It feels like an eternity.