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Post by dawnglo on Mar 8, 2012 7:24:27 GMT -5
Another month. Another single pink line. Another morning's worth of tears in the shower.
I'm going to be 43 next month and starting to wonder if I'm just plain crazy.
I'm seeing a new doctor next week, but I don't want to pin hopes on anything. Having babies at this age seems to be rich person's game. I can't afford IVF, surrogacy, or adoption. Even f I do get pregnant there are so many risks.
We've looked into adoption from foster care system, but we fear it would be too disruptive for my stepson,as he's had some knocks as well. Plus I'm grieving my inability to become a mom band as a family, we really don't "blend".
I don't know how to get past this. All I've ever wanted was to be a mom. This is tearing me apart. Am I crazy to want this?
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Healthylife4 Tori
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Post by Healthylife4 Tori on Mar 8, 2012 13:50:29 GMT -5
((hugs)) I am soon to be 40. Yes it is so hard and im sure you wouldnt tell me im crazzy for wanting a baby. Try not to be so hard on yourself. I have not had my rainbow baby yet.
I have lost 4 babies. But there is just that still voice inside my heart that says "Its not time to give up just yet." I have a few medical problems like Pcos, endo, autoimmune. That doesnt make it easy to conceive. And everytime i throw up my hands and say ok im done. I conceive. I try to remind myself im not in control...someone bigger is.
((hugs)) Saying a prayer for you that you find peace in any decision. I have seen many ladies of AMA go on to have their rainbow baby.
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Post by lauren&k&p&a&j&b's mom on Mar 8, 2012 14:24:34 GMT -5
No, not crazy at all...but also smart to seek medical help if it's not happening on its own. Is the new doctor a reproductive endocrinologist? I would at the very least ask about Clomid, which is not terribly expensive at $65 or so per cycle. Worked for me a couple of times at 40+. Depending on where you go, an IUI should run you about $500 or so (assuming no insurance coverage), which isn't wonderful but is still a fraction of the cost of IVF. Wishing you much luck on this journey and hoping to see you over on PAL soon!
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Post by justlostanangel on Mar 9, 2012 23:26:46 GMT -5
{{{{{{dawnglo}}}}}} NO, you are NOT crazy!! Wanting to be a mom is an honorable thing, & completely understandable! I wish I had some words of wisdom, but I don't, other than to share your feelings here; many of us can relate to your exact situation, but we all know the hurt, disappointment, sorrow, heartbreak.....wishing you peace.
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