missing my baby :(

[joanie]

I lost my baby over 15 years ago and have had 2 other children since then but there are days that it still hits me like a ton of bricks. I still cry at times. My daughter Allyssa is so cute she wants to have a birthday party for "Amanda" so this year we are going to have a birthday party for her. I love the way my children always count her, even though they never got to meet her. Today is just one of those hard days. I wish I was able to have held my baby in my arms, kiss her and tell her that I loved her. I know the whole week that I knew I was losing her I kept telling her that I was so sorry and that I loved her but it still hurts that I never got to hold her in my arms.........

[missingisaiah]

((((((((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))) I wish Amanda was with you. I'm glad your other children have that wonderful bond with her. Sometimes, from what Tabatha says, I wonder if God doesn't whisper things to our children about their angel siblings so they can have that bond.

[joanie]

I think your probably right.