3 years away from SG.

[marsij]

And I guess I'm back.

We had our 5th loss last April 2011. Due to the perimeno, we stopped ttc. But managed to get pg anyway. Total shock! It was over as soon as it started, basically. As will any future pregnancies for me. No hormones, no good eggs... just done. I guess I'm back because I'm feeling sad about my losses again. (Dang. I thought I got through this!!) One of my friends just announced her pregnancy. #5. She's a few years older than me. I am SO jealous. I'm trying not to be. I know I will never have more. Maybe that's it. The finality of it all.

I stepped away from SG because I felt like I wouldn't be able to move on if I stayed. I feel awful for deserting you all. And now I'm coming back with my tail between my legs, looking for a shoulder to cry on.

There's so much going on in my (extended) family right now, and maybe i'm just extra emotional at the moment. idk... Just feeling so deeply sad.

[Healthylife4 Tori]

(( Marsi))) I am very sorry for your loss. It's so discouraging to have a sweet surprise then to be heartbroken. ( speaking from experience) Please know you are in prayers.

[Alaska]

Marsi!!!! I have wondered about you and thought about you often. You are always the one who comes to my mind when I have a patient with symptoms similar to what you have. Always breaks my heart for them.

I am so sorry to hear about yet another loss for you. I am so, so sorry. But I am so glad you are here. It is so good to see a familiar face! (I am kellysmom, btw)

Sending you much much love!!!

[Krista]

Oh Marsi, I'm sorry you need to come back here again. So sorry for all of your losses. Of course we are here for you. *hug*

[dawn]

((((Marsi))))) I'm so sorry for your latest loss....but glad that you have come back.

[justlostanangel]

{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}} to you!! Don't feel like you've "come back with your tail between your legs." This site is here when YOU need it, and that can fluctuate! I hate that you've had another loss!! Please know that we're here for you, any time!

[Debs]

(((Marsi))) many of still remember you and your struggles. I'm sorry life is still so hard.

[nicegrumpy]

((((HUGS)))) and sorry that you had another loss. My heart breaks for you. Welcome back and many prayers for the days ahead.

Angela