Post by sunflowersmom on Dec 19, 2011 16:39:23 GMT -5
A couple of months ago, I was reading the Google news and came across an article where someone in Illinois had left a newborn baby girl in a shopping bag at a church. The pastor of the church had accidentally found her by mistaking that someone had left their bag and was going to put it in the lost-and-found.
I read this story less than a week from the 6th anniversary of my baby’s birthday. And it hit me so hard. I could not understand it.
How in the world could someone just leave a baby in a shopping bag?
There has to be a better solution to not wanting your child! I started bawling and couldn’t stop for quite a while. What I wouldn’t give to have my Sunflower here, safe, and alive with me. And not only that, but how this little tiny person must feel. It has to be scary to need to rely on others for survival and what do they do? Leave you in a bag…to die?...Or what?
My first instinct was to call the number listed in the article saying that I wanted to adopt the baby. Knowing full well that I have the capacity and courage and strength to take this little being in and love her as she was my own.
And I got to thinking. What can I do to make a difference? I obviously can’t adopt every single child that is thrown out. But what could I do? It’s in my heart to do big, but realistically, I had to tell myself to start small.
I ended up attending a bereavement care package assembly that was put on by A Walk To Remember. I was nervous about going as I didn’t know who would be there. But I went and it was one of the most fulfilling things I have done. I met other mothers who had lost babies like mine and we laughed and cried together and talked about our living children and how grateful we are to have them.
But the best part of helping assemble these care packages was that I was given some hope. There were about 25 moms who had lost infants who had shown to up to this one event! It was hard seeing all of the foot molds and jewelry and things I did not receive with my baby. It really took me back to the day I lost her. But, I left with a peace I hadn’t quite been able to accept since her loss and that peace stayed with me.
I asked the president of the group what else I could do. I started delivering the care packages to hospitals. This was a little harder and more emotional that than the care package assembly but it felt so good. I have an interview coming up with the MISS Foundation to become a facilitator for an infant loss support group. I am so excited about this position! I really feel in my heart that I am making a difference.
Sometimes it’s hard to think how all of these small things can actually be making a difference in the world but I have to remind myself that change is slow. And we have to start small and think big. Mahatma Gandhi said: "Be the change you wish to see in the world." So here's my challenge to you: What is the change you wish to see in the world? How are you going to be that change?
I read this story less than a week from the 6th anniversary of my baby’s birthday. And it hit me so hard. I could not understand it.
How in the world could someone just leave a baby in a shopping bag?
There has to be a better solution to not wanting your child! I started bawling and couldn’t stop for quite a while. What I wouldn’t give to have my Sunflower here, safe, and alive with me. And not only that, but how this little tiny person must feel. It has to be scary to need to rely on others for survival and what do they do? Leave you in a bag…to die?...Or what?
My first instinct was to call the number listed in the article saying that I wanted to adopt the baby. Knowing full well that I have the capacity and courage and strength to take this little being in and love her as she was my own.
And I got to thinking. What can I do to make a difference? I obviously can’t adopt every single child that is thrown out. But what could I do? It’s in my heart to do big, but realistically, I had to tell myself to start small.
I ended up attending a bereavement care package assembly that was put on by A Walk To Remember. I was nervous about going as I didn’t know who would be there. But I went and it was one of the most fulfilling things I have done. I met other mothers who had lost babies like mine and we laughed and cried together and talked about our living children and how grateful we are to have them.
But the best part of helping assemble these care packages was that I was given some hope. There were about 25 moms who had lost infants who had shown to up to this one event! It was hard seeing all of the foot molds and jewelry and things I did not receive with my baby. It really took me back to the day I lost her. But, I left with a peace I hadn’t quite been able to accept since her loss and that peace stayed with me.
I asked the president of the group what else I could do. I started delivering the care packages to hospitals. This was a little harder and more emotional that than the care package assembly but it felt so good. I have an interview coming up with the MISS Foundation to become a facilitator for an infant loss support group. I am so excited about this position! I really feel in my heart that I am making a difference.
Sometimes it’s hard to think how all of these small things can actually be making a difference in the world but I have to remind myself that change is slow. And we have to start small and think big. Mahatma Gandhi said: "Be the change you wish to see in the world." So here's my challenge to you: What is the change you wish to see in the world? How are you going to be that change?