Post by julesnco on May 18, 2011 7:02:10 GMT -5
Hello to all. New here and feeling like I need to make some understanding connections as DH and I are about to embark in another baby making attempt. Here is our history.
Me: 40 with moderate to severe PCOS, questionable hypothyroidism and generally a happy person otherwise ;D
DH: 40 , very fit but with some SA issues, mainly low count <20 mil, and that is pretty great for a guy who lost one of his boys at 16 due to testicular torsion(sp?)
We have a 7 yr old DS conceived with Clomid, 5yr old DD who was a natural suprise, and 18mon old DD conceived after 3 rounds of Clomid, several cancelled cycles due to cysts.
Sadly, we have had 3 losses as well, most recently we lost a precious, much wanted miracle in Jan. 2011 at 11 weeks. I am just now getting out of the sad 'fog' of greiving over this last m/c. It really hit me v. hard this time and as my 40thwas approaching, it just made me think, I don't want this to be my last memory of maternity. So, we have decided to throw everything at trying one last time. We tried and tried for the 3 months after the mc, but no luck. Then I started bleeding in March and didn't stop for 7 weeks. My prog was tested and only .07!! That scared the bee gee gees outta me and I ran back to my RE. I live in Ireland, so things are a bit different here, you have to go through your GP usually for all medical referrals, but since I was an established pt., they saw me w/o a referral straight away.
He put me on meds to start a 'real' period and then straight onto bc pills, which I didn't want to do, but did. Bled through them as well.
So, they took me off and started the FSH shots for 10 days, but I couldn't TTC because I had 3 big follies. Did the trigger shot anyhow to hopefully get the ovaries to work and thereby increase my natural progest. levels again. Must have o'd because I got my period on cd 26, a bit early but not too bad for me.
I am so nervous that I am going into menopause, but the doc says my other numbers are good and he just thinks my system is all out of whack since I went from bfeeding my 12 month old to getting pg. to mc all in 3 months. DH is getting sick of me going on about all of this and thinks I am becoming a hypochondriac.
I try and remind him, he is not looking down the barrel of this menopause shotgun, I am. Maybe I am greedy, but I just love my kids so much, I just pray we will be blessed with one more wonderful child. The doctor in our town is trying to tell me, 'Look, you're 40 and 3 beautiful children, why do you want to go through all this again?' She makes me feel 'guilty' about wanting more and wanting to get all the bloodwork done etc. I know I am already blessed with the kids I have, but after this last m/c, it just made me want to try harder....hope that makes sense to someone else in this world.
Whew! if you are still here thanks for 'meeting' me!
Now, we have been told last week that we can't go TTC again this month, because I have a cyst. So, may try ourselves anyhow this month and I am patiently waiting for Prog. results from bloodwork CD3 last week. Everything takes weeks to get back here, so slow! Wish I was in the states where they call you withlab results the next day!
Hopefully , I am on the right board. The doc wants us to go straight to IUI next cycle if the cyst is resolved. We have not done that before, but I am so keen to get things moving, I am trying to talk DH into the extra $$ (euros) and cup donation vs. BD. He isn't as keen, but I think I can win this round.
Will check in as and when we find out whether we can go ahead next month.
Tx. for listening. Julee
Me: 40 with moderate to severe PCOS, questionable hypothyroidism and generally a happy person otherwise ;D
DH: 40 , very fit but with some SA issues, mainly low count <20 mil, and that is pretty great for a guy who lost one of his boys at 16 due to testicular torsion(sp?)
We have a 7 yr old DS conceived with Clomid, 5yr old DD who was a natural suprise, and 18mon old DD conceived after 3 rounds of Clomid, several cancelled cycles due to cysts.
Sadly, we have had 3 losses as well, most recently we lost a precious, much wanted miracle in Jan. 2011 at 11 weeks. I am just now getting out of the sad 'fog' of greiving over this last m/c. It really hit me v. hard this time and as my 40thwas approaching, it just made me think, I don't want this to be my last memory of maternity. So, we have decided to throw everything at trying one last time. We tried and tried for the 3 months after the mc, but no luck. Then I started bleeding in March and didn't stop for 7 weeks. My prog was tested and only .07!! That scared the bee gee gees outta me and I ran back to my RE. I live in Ireland, so things are a bit different here, you have to go through your GP usually for all medical referrals, but since I was an established pt., they saw me w/o a referral straight away.
He put me on meds to start a 'real' period and then straight onto bc pills, which I didn't want to do, but did. Bled through them as well.
So, they took me off and started the FSH shots for 10 days, but I couldn't TTC because I had 3 big follies. Did the trigger shot anyhow to hopefully get the ovaries to work and thereby increase my natural progest. levels again. Must have o'd because I got my period on cd 26, a bit early but not too bad for me.
I am so nervous that I am going into menopause, but the doc says my other numbers are good and he just thinks my system is all out of whack since I went from bfeeding my 12 month old to getting pg. to mc all in 3 months. DH is getting sick of me going on about all of this and thinks I am becoming a hypochondriac.
I try and remind him, he is not looking down the barrel of this menopause shotgun, I am. Maybe I am greedy, but I just love my kids so much, I just pray we will be blessed with one more wonderful child. The doctor in our town is trying to tell me, 'Look, you're 40 and 3 beautiful children, why do you want to go through all this again?' She makes me feel 'guilty' about wanting more and wanting to get all the bloodwork done etc. I know I am already blessed with the kids I have, but after this last m/c, it just made me want to try harder....hope that makes sense to someone else in this world.
Whew! if you are still here thanks for 'meeting' me!
Now, we have been told last week that we can't go TTC again this month, because I have a cyst. So, may try ourselves anyhow this month and I am patiently waiting for Prog. results from bloodwork CD3 last week. Everything takes weeks to get back here, so slow! Wish I was in the states where they call you withlab results the next day! Hopefully , I am on the right board. The doc wants us to go straight to IUI next cycle if the cyst is resolved. We have not done that before, but I am so keen to get things moving, I am trying to talk DH into the extra $$ (euros) and cup donation vs. BD. He isn't as keen, but I think I can win this round.
Will check in as and when we find out whether we can go ahead next month.
Tx. for listening. Julee
