Post by promisegranted on Apr 18, 2011 13:26:08 GMT -5
Hi - My name is Jan and I am so thankful for finding this site on a day like today.
For the last few weeks, I had been having very sharp stomach pains, but because they were not consistent, I really though it was gas and nothing serious. Well, on last Wednesday as I was making my way to my car to go grab lunch, they got to the point of hurting so bad, they caused me to pass out. Being that I was at work, security called 911 who immediately rushed me to the hospital.
After running a few tests, come to find out I was pregnant and unfortunately the baby was in my left tube, which also was burst due to a cyst that had ruptured.
Well, going into surgery, I was somewhat upbeat because I think I was just happy that they found out where that excruciating pain was coming from and I would be getting some relief.
After being released from the hospital, I happened to ask my husband if anyone had given him any information as to how far along I was or the sex of the baby. He told me they didn't tell him the the sex, but they did tell him I was about 12 weeks.
Before I continue, let me back track a little. This is my second marriage - to a wonderful, kind, loving, thoughtful man who adores everything about me, or so I thought. My husband actually has 3 children from his previous marriage, a grandson, a grand-daughter on the way and the youngest child getting ready to graduate from highschool. We had recently been joking about seeing people who are in their 40's and beyond walking around with newborns, asking ourselves, what in the world were they thinking.
Well, what a sense of humor God has!!! We became one of those couples for a short period of time.
The issue I'm currently having is not necessarily losing the baby, but believing, for all this time, I could never get pregnant and now seeing that I did, and knowing there is a possiblility that I can become again. Unfortunately, my husband doesn't care to have anymore children.
I feel as though I have been punched in the stomach and the wind has been knocked out of me. I am trying hard not to be angry with God, my husband, the situation, but today was hard. I am thankful that I have learned when I get in situations like this to dig deep and worship God anyway. I would like to ask that you guys just pray for my strength and for my husband and I to find some common ground in this situation. Not knowing if I want to try again or not and if I do, if I can get my husband on board. Can everything just go back to the way it was?...
For the last few weeks, I had been having very sharp stomach pains, but because they were not consistent, I really though it was gas and nothing serious. Well, on last Wednesday as I was making my way to my car to go grab lunch, they got to the point of hurting so bad, they caused me to pass out. Being that I was at work, security called 911 who immediately rushed me to the hospital.
After running a few tests, come to find out I was pregnant and unfortunately the baby was in my left tube, which also was burst due to a cyst that had ruptured.
Well, going into surgery, I was somewhat upbeat because I think I was just happy that they found out where that excruciating pain was coming from and I would be getting some relief.
After being released from the hospital, I happened to ask my husband if anyone had given him any information as to how far along I was or the sex of the baby. He told me they didn't tell him the the sex, but they did tell him I was about 12 weeks.
Before I continue, let me back track a little. This is my second marriage - to a wonderful, kind, loving, thoughtful man who adores everything about me, or so I thought. My husband actually has 3 children from his previous marriage, a grandson, a grand-daughter on the way and the youngest child getting ready to graduate from highschool. We had recently been joking about seeing people who are in their 40's and beyond walking around with newborns, asking ourselves, what in the world were they thinking.
Well, what a sense of humor God has!!! We became one of those couples for a short period of time.
The issue I'm currently having is not necessarily losing the baby, but believing, for all this time, I could never get pregnant and now seeing that I did, and knowing there is a possiblility that I can become again. Unfortunately, my husband doesn't care to have anymore children.
I feel as though I have been punched in the stomach and the wind has been knocked out of me. I am trying hard not to be angry with God, my husband, the situation, but today was hard. I am thankful that I have learned when I get in situations like this to dig deep and worship God anyway. I would like to ask that you guys just pray for my strength and for my husband and I to find some common ground in this situation. Not knowing if I want to try again or not and if I do, if I can get my husband on board. Can everything just go back to the way it was?...
