Post by dessy on Oct 15, 2009 14:52:04 GMT -5
I have read some incredibly sad stories here and cannot pull myself to respond. I am heartbroken for you all as much as I am for myself.
I was in an accident with my bicycle when I was about 7 years old. My periods were always irregular and I started seeing a doctor when I was about 15 years old. I was told from the very start that my chances of conceiving were almost nothing...and this haunted me.
All I ever wanted from the time I can remember was to be a mommy. I have an amazing mother and I want to share her gifts with a child, her strengths..she did such a great job that I have always wanted to be just like her.
Knowing that my chances to conceive were low did not stop me from using protection, but I found out in April that I miscarried my first pregnancy at 8 weeks. It was just completely earth shattering. I didn't know I could become pregnant so quickly after a miscarriage, but I miscarried again in June at 8 weeks.
The pain was intense and I ended up with post-partum depression and have been seeing so many doctors since.
Now I'm not sure if I'm happy to say that I am currently pregnant. I don't want to say how far along I am for fear of jinxing it... and miscarrying my little one.
My first pregnancy really was a beacon of hope, and I wrote a song to that unborn miracle. I would not mind posting the lyrics if anyone would be interested to read them.
I am on top of this pregnancy... doctors and vitamins and excersize and no this and all that. I am not sure I could handle another loss.
I was in an accident with my bicycle when I was about 7 years old. My periods were always irregular and I started seeing a doctor when I was about 15 years old. I was told from the very start that my chances of conceiving were almost nothing...and this haunted me.
All I ever wanted from the time I can remember was to be a mommy. I have an amazing mother and I want to share her gifts with a child, her strengths..she did such a great job that I have always wanted to be just like her.
Knowing that my chances to conceive were low did not stop me from using protection, but I found out in April that I miscarried my first pregnancy at 8 weeks. It was just completely earth shattering. I didn't know I could become pregnant so quickly after a miscarriage, but I miscarried again in June at 8 weeks.
The pain was intense and I ended up with post-partum depression and have been seeing so many doctors since.
Now I'm not sure if I'm happy to say that I am currently pregnant. I don't want to say how far along I am for fear of jinxing it... and miscarrying my little one.
My first pregnancy really was a beacon of hope, and I wrote a song to that unborn miracle. I would not mind posting the lyrics if anyone would be interested to read them.
I am on top of this pregnancy... doctors and vitamins and excersize and no this and all that. I am not sure I could handle another loss.