A Poem ~ "Me Now"

[missingmike04]

"Me...Now."

Life here on Earth is a living h*ll,
Heartbreak and struggle have made me un-well.
I'm dying right in front or you,
Why can't you all see.

My spirit has been crushed, battered, shattered and broke,
All that's left now,
Are ashes and smoke.

Why God, did this have to happen to me?
I wanted him to live,
Why couldn't you just let him be?

The Bad memories are too many,
The good are far to less.
I look at my past,
And think, Oh God what a mess.

Have I done this by myself?
I look around for someone to blame,
But all I see is my reflection,
And I'm filled with shame.

You took my Father and my Beloved Son,
Was it you God, or has the Devil won?

My life is not done or so I'm told,
In 2 years I have aged so much,
My body is Beat and I feel 10 more years old.

But life has to unfold in God's natural way,
Until that day comes,
When there's nothing left to say.

How did this all happen?
What should I have done?
It's all too late now,
I've lost my Mike, My Baby, My Son...

In Loving Memory: Michael...My Son

Mary E. mom of Michael
2/27/80 - 5/22/04

[judiann]

(((((((Mary))))))))

Your poem is achingly beautiful....
I'm so sorry for the loss of your son, Michael ......

It will soon be 5 years for both of us....where has the time gone?
how did it go by so fast?? I didn't even notice.....

You are Welcome to join us on the "Loss of Teen/Adult Child" board....if you want.
Although it's been almost 5 years....I need just as much support now...maybe more...then when I first came here.

Love,
judiann

[Clara Hinton]

Dear Mary, mom of Michael,

I'm so very, very sorry.

Your poem is one that only a mother could write straight from her broken heart. Thank you so much for sharing. I'm sure that many grieving parents can identify with the feelings you are having during this five-year anniversary of the lossof your son.

As Judiann said, there is always a need for support, and for whatever reason, the five year mark is an especially difficult one. Again, I'm so very sorry for your loss.

I pray that you will continue to gain love and support from your friends here. Please know that you are in our many thoughts.

Love and prayers,

Clara