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Post by youngone on Feb 1, 2008 23:13:03 GMT -5
im 17 years old. at the age of 15yrs & 8months i was told i was to be a mother. others around me looked down upon my. saying why is this "youngone" carring. i acted like their words dont hate me. for they never knew the truth. i never asked to carry a mircle like mines. i had my wild years then i was young & still learning. i fell in love with the wrong guy. must older then myself at the time. naiive was i. i drunk & smoke until the world was a hazel. he'll take out the world problems on me. the doc started to know my name. each time i lied to them & myself. i said i loved him & he would hurt a fly. he LOVED me. right? i started to beleive my own lies. one night he took it too far. smelling of odors so strong. a knife in my leg & him between my thighs. what a first time. i never told him i was carring our baby. i feared for his safety & mines. one blow to my side & the act of his force. that day he killed my son & my soul. i learned i hard lesson that day. 16 is young. i know im a youngone. my elders say i know no pain im to young. sometime i wish they only knew, no i take it back i wish this pain on no one.
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Post by heidi on Feb 2, 2008 15:35:05 GMT -5
Hugs. I'm so sorry for all you've been through. You deserve so much better. Are you safe now, hon?
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Post by missingisaiah on Feb 4, 2008 12:47:25 GMT -5
(((HUGS))). I am so sorry you've been through so much. I hope you are safe and far away from him now.
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Post by nicegrumpy on Feb 10, 2008 21:17:50 GMT -5
YOu should seek some type of counselling for the trauma that you have experienced so early in your life, so that you will know how to love properly, and not be afraid when the RIGHT man comes along. And also to deal with the lost of your baby, no matter how young or old we are, losing a baby affects us all. I am sure that people around you see your age and think that you would be grateful, however, that is not the case.
I pray that you are safe and far away from that horrible person. Please seek help if you are not. He harmed you before, next time you might not be so lucky.
Take care; Angela
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