Thought my heart was done

[hopeingtohavebaby]

Thought my heart was done

I did all the right things today
Brushed my teeth, showered, put on make up
And put on a smile even made breakfast for my husband

Got my nine year old ready for school
Made sure she had her favorite shirt washed and new pink socks
And made sure my 14 year old had soda money
And taught my three year old how to say her ABC'S

But I didnt forget.....my daughter
The other one.
The one they say is in a beautiful place.
That it wasnt meant to be.
What was the five months i carried her?
Wasnt it her that i held so tiny in my hand

I thought my heart was done with crying
I have to appear normal to my family its been 11 months.

Oh ok...sure we can go to the play friday that will be fun.
I got everything done to appear normal.
But my heart isnt done yet.
Come on heart heal... so i can look normal

[heidi]

Hugs. You're never going to forget your daughter and you shouldn't. Let yourself cry when you need to. You don't have to appear normal, hon. Your grief is still so new. Give yourself time, hon. *big hug*

[missingisaiah]

So sorry for the loss of your daughter. You will never forget her and you can never go back to the normal you had before she died. Hang in there and better moments will arrive. Someday, I am told, we will even have a "new" normal again.

[lonelyheart24]

I'm so sorry for the pain you are going through right now.. Just know that you are not alone... I am right there with you... We all need each other... Much love,
-Michelle-

[mama2noah]

(((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))

I understand exaclty how you feel. I have DSD's that are 17 & 15. My son is 1, but I still long for my little girl, "Miracle." She was inside me for 4 short months, but I was so bonded to her. I had great hopes and dreams for her life. I miss her dearly and wonder daily "what-if."

[ladyann]

thinking about you today . . . . ((((((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))))))