Post by showneez on Jun 4, 2007 5:12:44 GMT -5
We were happy together and we both decided that we should have a child together. But we did not expect it to be so soon. We had a fight the Friday afternoon and he broke up with me. I was sad over weekend, but somehow discovered that i was pregnant and i decided not to tell him, but he figured it out and he could feel something was wrong. When i told him that i was pregnant he was very happy and scared at the same time and i felt the same. I then took and home pregnancy test and it was positive. We spoke about our baby all the time everyday, we would speak about how it would look and if it would be a girl or a boy and were we would stay and how happy we would be. I would go to sleep everynight tell the baby how much we love it and how we would have a wonderful like together. The 10/02/2007 was on a Saturday we spend the whole day together, laughing, talking and we were just very happy that day like we've never been before. The Monday 12/02/2007 when i was at work i started get cramps and pains and as the day went by it just became worse and i did not want to tell anyone because i was scared and somehow i knew something bad was happening to me. When i went to check in the toilet i saw blood spots, but when i got home it was worse and when i sat on the toilet i felt how the clots were falling down i then went to the doctor but it was to late, i had already lost our baby our sweet love child. I was devestated, i went home and cried and cried. I felt empty inside like the my whole world had come to a stand still. I felt alone and like i could just not face the world again. I felt like i was being punished for the things i had done in my life. My boyfriend showed no emotion and that made it worse because it felt like he was angry at me for loosing our baby like he blamed me for loosing our love child. I just felt like dying. I cried myself to sleep everynight hoping that it was one big ugly dream and that when i woke up everything would be back to normal but it was not going to happen everything went wrong. I still cry at night thinking how my baby would have looked and would it have been a little girl or a boy growing inside of me the fact that i did not even have a chance to see my babies face or even hold it makes me sad. But i put my trust in God to take the pain away and someday i would meet my baby in Heaven and we would be reconnected. I lost our love child when i was 2 and half months pregnant