Post by egarrett06 on Feb 21, 2007 11:21:52 GMT -5
Were you a girl or a boy?
Would you have possibly been president one day?
Would you have your daddys sky blue eyes or my darker blue ones?
Would you have been tall, short, skinny, or chubby?
Would you have blonde straight hair like mine or wavy like your brother and sister?
What would your little giggles sound like?
I wonder...what would we have named you?
Why did God take you away from me? Or was it the devil?
Will this huge hole be in my heart for the rest of my life or will it eventually mend???
Why did you have to leave me?
I hope that you are in eteral bliss in heaven with your nanna...there is no other place i would rather you be,besides with me...
Some people say when we die and go to heaven we are all brothers and sisters, I dont want to be your sister...I want to be your mommy....
Can i be your mommy one day?
Oh, there are so many questions that are left unanswered, I hope we have answers one day. I know, though, that you were so very much loved by me and your daddy. During the time we were losing you, God kept whispering to me ,"not yet" "its not time yet, i have something else planned for you" I begged God not to let you leave me....I begged him to take anyone and i mean ANYONE else but not one of my babies. I screamed at him that I couldnt do this, I'll never get through it....but he just kept that little voice going saying it wasnt time yet...I got mad at God...what does he mean it wasnt time yet? He wouldnt answer me...or maybe i didnt hear...I screamed at him...I told him I hated him...I dont hate God...I believe that he wouldnt do anything to us that would hurt us other than to show us something..I'm still looking for it by the way. You have a beautiful sister...did you pick her for me?? does she know you? are you who she smiles at in the corner of our room?? I like to believe you are here with me and that she can see you...You were there one day with your little heart beating away and then you were gone...I prayed that I wouldnt be in any pain because the pain in my heart was too great for me to be able to endure physical pain too...the pain was taken away from me...did you ask God to help your mommy? I like to think maybe you know who i am.... I miss you so very much and look at your little ultrasound picture often...Its all I have of you until we meet again...My baby, my little angel I love you so so very much...
mommy
Would you have possibly been president one day?
Would you have your daddys sky blue eyes or my darker blue ones?
Would you have been tall, short, skinny, or chubby?
Would you have blonde straight hair like mine or wavy like your brother and sister?
What would your little giggles sound like?
I wonder...what would we have named you?
Why did God take you away from me? Or was it the devil?
Will this huge hole be in my heart for the rest of my life or will it eventually mend???
Why did you have to leave me?
I hope that you are in eteral bliss in heaven with your nanna...there is no other place i would rather you be,besides with me...
Some people say when we die and go to heaven we are all brothers and sisters, I dont want to be your sister...I want to be your mommy....
Can i be your mommy one day?
Oh, there are so many questions that are left unanswered, I hope we have answers one day. I know, though, that you were so very much loved by me and your daddy. During the time we were losing you, God kept whispering to me ,"not yet" "its not time yet, i have something else planned for you" I begged God not to let you leave me....I begged him to take anyone and i mean ANYONE else but not one of my babies. I screamed at him that I couldnt do this, I'll never get through it....but he just kept that little voice going saying it wasnt time yet...I got mad at God...what does he mean it wasnt time yet? He wouldnt answer me...or maybe i didnt hear...I screamed at him...I told him I hated him...I dont hate God...I believe that he wouldnt do anything to us that would hurt us other than to show us something..I'm still looking for it by the way. You have a beautiful sister...did you pick her for me?? does she know you? are you who she smiles at in the corner of our room?? I like to believe you are here with me and that she can see you...You were there one day with your little heart beating away and then you were gone...I prayed that I wouldnt be in any pain because the pain in my heart was too great for me to be able to endure physical pain too...the pain was taken away from me...did you ask God to help your mommy? I like to think maybe you know who i am.... I miss you so very much and look at your little ultrasound picture often...Its all I have of you until we meet again...My baby, my little angel I love you so so very much...
mommy