Post by kata2007 on Feb 4, 2007 1:21:52 GMT -5
I was once pregnant before, during the summer of 2006, I was working and still going to school. I had quit my job and decided to stay at home and go to school. My boyfriend and I are living together and at the time too! He and I are still young I'm 17 turning 18 this month and he barley turned 19, but he is working! We wanted to have a child, I knew that what I was doing, I knew that it was going to mine and his responsibility to take care of a child. But I wanted a baby, i didn't care about what other people said, that I was too young and being carefree. My friend Ashlee believes that I was being care free! I got pregnant around late July of 2006 and I found out in August that I was two weeks! I was so happy and told my boyfriend everything, because he was working and I went to have an ultra sound! I never knew that a little child so tiny can make you feel so grateful and exciting! I was taking care of myself, going through morning sickness in school and going to my appts. doing everything that I was suppose to do! But I was always stressed out with my mom and brother alot like every single day! My boyfriend and I would talk at nights with our baby! But one day I had this prank phone call that my boyfriend was cheating on me while I'm at my church classes and it had me really stressed out, but I did not believe it! We were at a store looking around and all of a sudden I was bleeding. I tried not to think about and I told my Mingo "my boyfriend" that I was bleeding and he hugged me and told me not to worry! Later in the middle of the night I was still bleeding and we ended up going to the hospital! Gosh, I was so scared when the doctor had told us that I may be going through a miscarriage. I didn't want to believe the words that he was telling me! We got out of the hospital around 8 in the morning and went back home. i told my mom about it and we we still auguring over little things! Mingo and I went to church and I started to fell lower back pains and little around my stomach! That night around 10:30pm I woke up in so much pain I couldn't stand! I was crying the whole time! Mingo took me to another hospital and I was taken in right away to a room! I was bleeding and crying with so much pain! I wanted just to die just feeling the pain! Nurses coming back in forth, into the room seeking medical help for my pain! While Mingo and i were in the room by our selfs, i felt this feeling like a blood clot coming out! So small and jelly looking! The nurse came in and I told her that something came out of me and she told me that it was a placenta! I had less pain after that moment, they still used and ivy on me and told me that i had a miscarriage but it happened suddenly! I was on my 2nd month.We got out of the hospital around 5am and got something to eat! I didn't go to school for 4 days! I still wounder till this day why this happened to me! I wanted a baby, I wasn't just having sex and accidentally get pregnant I wanted to become pregnant! Till this day I still cry, i still have so much jealousy and anger when i see girls my age pregnant and saying that they didn't plan it! I just cry hearing it! I was going to have my first baby and I had a miscarriage to my first! I just think about everything, what could of happened it I was still pregnant. I was suppose to be due this year in April 9, 2007 I had planned names at the time. I never knew the baby was a girl or a boy! If it was a boy, Domingo Sanchez or a girl Aliana Princeca Sanchez. What scares me the most is what i would do it i could have any! There are so many women that goes through miscarriages repeatedly all the time and I really do give them respect that they still keep their heads up! For the women that has gone through a miscarriage or more PLZ DO NOT GIVE UP!!! GOD WILL SOONER OR LATER LET YOU HAVE YOUR BABY!!!