My first pregnancy and miscarriage story

[likeariver]

Do you guys think it is possilbe to have intuition that something is going to happen? Well I did and do a lot and that can be a curse. This was my first pregnancy and when I found out I was pregnant (at first I was overjoyed just like anyone would be). Then I had a dream where I woke up and there was blood everywhere. That freaked me out, but I ignored it. I started to bleed at 5.5 weeks (I didn't miscarry but whether this was a precursor to whether I would miscarry later, I don't know). When I went for my first ultra sound at 6.5 weeks, I just knew we wouldn't see the heartbeat and sure enough, no heartbeat. However, i went back in another week at 7.5 weeks and there was a heartbeat (I also knew at this point there would be a heartbeat). I was overjoyed thinking the worst was behind me. I was told the baby had probably just implanted late which was why it looked like a 6 week pregnancy instead of 7.5 weeks. I was happy for about a week...and then I started having weird doubts again. I became a little obsessive searching for stuff on the internet to prove I wouldn't miscarry. On the day of my 10th week of pregnancy, I woke up with back pain and asked my husband to take me to the ER. Sure enough...when they did the ultrasound, the baby had died the week previously. I had a D&C that day (which was just a few days ago).

I am mad that I can't be more like ignorance is bliss...And I am scared for my next pregnancy although the doctor thinks it was just a freak of nature thing. Well that's my story...I hope to have good intuition for the next pregnancy because I aim to be pregnant by April. Thanks for reading this! Erica

[missy->Plus4!]

I deifinitely believe in mother's intuition. I am sorry for the loss of your precious baby. I will say a prayer that you will have a healthy screaming baby soon!

[ericksjh]

I know how you feel completely. I found out a week and a half ago I was pregnant. I have waited almost 6 years for that moment. Instead of being happy or excited, I was sad and depressed, thinking I would miscarry. Everyone said not to worry. Things looked good but I started spotting only a day or two later. Then, I passed clots and red blood. We had an ultrasound yesterday which showed no heartbeat. My HCG counts had stopped doubling, and I have started getting a "period". I have felt the whole time this was going to happen, and am now sad that I tried to "pretend" things were okay and told so many people. The hardest part is telling people the baby is gone, if only I hadn't told anyone, it would just be my secret pain..

[mommy2five]

I also believe in Mother's intuition. About 10 days before we lost Lily I had a dream where I woke up and she was gone. I wish I would have listened to my inner voice, maybe her death could have been avoided.

[jenjon7]

I totally believe that, i miscarried at 20 weeks in January. at first I was stressed because they said I had a heart shaped uterus, but after 12 weeks, I heard the heartbeat at 16 weeks and I felt much better, but then at 18 weeks or so I kept telling my husband and best freind I know something is wrong and stressed. I had not felt any movemet and sure enough at my 20 week appointment there was no heartbeat, I had had a missed miscarriage. I was devasted and still am.

[chantel]

With my son, i had weird feelings right after we finished his nursery. I was about 35 weeks and I thought "there will never be a baby in this room" also, when planning my maternity leave a small voice thought "this is pointless. I will have to go back early".

I, too, wish I had listened to those voices. I never told anyone because I figured they would think I was crazy. It is a horrible horrible thing to live with memories of those thoughts.

[onelastwish13]

I'm sorry for your loss. I lost my baby at 1 months in my pregancy and that been about a mont ago and its still hard on me and m husband but we moving on slowing and taking it one day at a time. It still hurts and I will always remimber my baby, but we are looking at the furture and the other child we will have. So just remember they will be more children in your life just remember this one and look at the furture with lots of hopes and good promises...

[Mommy2Elijah]

oh wow!! i've had a similar experience. the moment i found out i was pregnant i knew in my heart of hearts taht the pregnacny wouldn't last. wow.

glad to know im not alone.


and i'm truly sorry for your loss! ((((HUGS))))