I'm not sure I can do this.

[heidi]

I went to a new ob/gyn today. We discussed everything.

I had a pap smear for the first time since Adam was born. Bad me. 4 tries and 4 speculum later, she got the sample. (I have a tilted uterus). Ouch. I'm still feeling it. Thank God for Advil.

I was doing well explaining my history to her. That is, until she was blatantly honest with me. Because my bladder was cut once , it is likely the scar tissue may have adhered to adjoining tissues. (The full length of the bladder was cut accidently during my last c-section). If I should have another c-section, it is highly likely it will get cut again. My bladder hurts just thinking of it.

What have I gotten myself into? I'm terrified now. I should have made this d**n appointment before David's surgery. I'm such an idiot.

Heidi

[melodyg]

((((((hugs))))))

Could you try VBAC? Does hearing this news change your mind on trying to get pg??? If not... breathe... and try to get through one challenge at a time!

I'm sorry you got bad news

Melody

[judiann]

(((((((Heidi))))))

Ouch!!! Now My bladder hurts.....ugh.
Calm down, don't get too far ahead of yourself.....there seems to be a May be in there & a highly likely, but.....nothing for Certain, right?? So.....relax.....one day at a time, one challenge at a time, ok??
Now I gotta go pee.....that always happens when I hear the "B" word ......& Please don't call my Dear, Sweet Friend an idiot....I know her very well & she's not

Love ya

judiann

[marsij]

Ugh.....I'm so sorry. I really don't know what to say to make it better.

I will say, my cousin had a VBAC, and didn't think it was possible! So things could turn out just fine.
(((((hugs)))))

[lindac]

(((((((((((HEIDI)))))))))))))

Try not to worry about things that haven't happened yet. There is just a chance of things like that happening. Highly likely still doesn't mean it will and in the long run you have to decide whether to pursue another baby and what it is worth to you. Life is not without chances. Had this not happened before you would not be worrying. There are always risks with anything worth having, we just have blinders on to so much. What would life be if we didn't take risks?

You will make the right decision for you! Now I have to chastise you a bit about that Pap! Young lady, those are very, very important and you WILL start having them regularly!!!! Okay? Okay! A little pain once a year is so much better than the alternative.

Many hugs,

[LauraBeth]

Heidi...

((((((((((((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

In Him,
Laura