the latest...(TTC mentioned)

[marsij]

I hope you all don't mind me posting this here right now. I'm just not feeling like I want to be on TTC right now, with everything that has happened with me lately.

Well, I'm not sure If I ovulated or not. I might have afterall though. I adjusted my temps for when I was on vacation, and I got a CL on CD14. (I put everything back where it was on my chart though, until I know otherwise. kwim?) It's felt like af is on the way for a week and a half now. And nothing. Just the mildly crampy slightly bloated feeling. My blood sugar has also been high since I got back home, and my eating habbits never changed. I have a theory of what's going on, I just don't want to "go there" right now in the middle of VBS week, getting the house put back together, etc, etc. I'm a procrastinator. Or maybe I'm in denial. I don't know!

My body has never been the same after that first m/c. So even if everything is pointing to where I hope it might be, I could be totally wrong. And it wouldn't be the first time. (thanks, pcos....)

So I guess I just need to try to not think about it right now, and hope that everything will work out...one way or another...I HATE this crazy confusing world of TTC with infertility issues!

[heidi]

Hugs, Marsi. I hope it's what you're denying.

Heidi

[melodyg]

(((((hugs)))))) Keep us posted...

Melody

[wloublue]

I understand waiting to find anything out. If anything is going on, it will be going on for a while and it won't make any difference in the long run when you found out what is going on.

Let us know when you get done what you need to do, and good luck not thinking about anything else that might be going on while you focus on what is going on right now.

Hmm, what are we talking about again?

[dawnn]

(((Marsi))) Keep us posted, hon.
Love,
Dawn

[lovemymonkeys]

Sending you hugs, {{{Marsi}}}!! At least you have VBS & getting things back in order after being in Colorado to keep your mind off of "things".

Keep us posted & hoping your denial turns into reality!!!

Love,
Audra

[lynn]

Marsi-
I totally hear you on the not reading into signs and symptoms too much....especially with all the stuff that Clomid does to our bodies. Hang in there and try to keep you mind off of it....and keep any eye on those blood sugars.

When can you test? Here's to hoping that the 4th cycle of Clomid was finally "the one" for both of us!!!

[zoeysmommy4ever]

sending hugs your way!! I hope you have peace with your decision!