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Post by dawnn on Jun 21, 2006 22:26:46 GMT -5
because I know it could be part of the clomid talking.....but
The other day dh asked me, "Do you think we'll ever have any other children?"
I've got to be honest, the thought does go through my mind. I know this is only my 2nd month on clomid (this time around). But for years and years, I knew that I was one day going to have a daughter. I'd had dreams so real, I knew they were from God. I used to say to people, "Not that I wouldn't love to have boys, but I know some day I will have a daughter. I may have 5 boys first but I know I've been promised a daughter." It was even prophesied over me over the course of 13 years and by several different people in several different parts of the country.
Well, I have my beautiful daughter. I really want her to have brothers or sisters, but I guess there's that nagging thought of "what if". I almost want to delete this post because it sounds so faithless...but maybe there's someone else out there feeling the same way?
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Post by heidi on Jun 21, 2006 22:57:45 GMT -5
I felt very much like that before I had my son, hon. I think it's just a way of protecting our emotions in case it doesn't happen. Make sense?
Heidi
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Post by marsij on Jun 22, 2006 11:49:19 GMT -5
Dawn,
Me too. For the longest time I thought "maybe just one" and that's what I got (Unexpectedly and sooner than we "planned". Go figure!). Now it feels like I'm not supposed to have any more, even though I want just one more! 
I hate feeling guilty every time I take a clomid...or even the Met at that. Feels like I'm messing with God's plan. Even though maybe the clomid and Met are His plan. 
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Post by oldmissiondanes on Jun 26, 2006 20:19:39 GMT -5
Ok total newbie here, what is a clomid and Met?
Stephanie
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Post by heidi on Jun 26, 2006 21:19:04 GMT -5
Clomid is a prescription medicine that helps you ovulate. Metformin is a prescription medication that is given to help treat insulin resistance, a problem often associated with PCOS (polycystic ovarian syndrome). Sometimes these medications are prescribed together.
Heidi
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Post by wloublue on Jun 27, 2006 10:13:42 GMT -5
I feel certain, without a doubt, that our family is not finished.
However, I am beginning to wonder if we are meant to add to it through foster or adopted children. We both are starting to feel drawn to the idea of adopting siblings.
Yet, I still have this strong vision of our lost one as a vague form, flitting between us and the Other World, playing with a bright light, our Shining Star, the little one we are waiting for.
Still after living so long in limbo, it is hard to keep the faith, and I am weary of this journey.
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Post by april on Jul 2, 2006 23:39:11 GMT -5
I felt faithless for years. Dan and I got married in 1999 and that was 3 years after we started dating! We instantly wanted children and started trying right away! We were told on a continuous basis that nothing was wrong with us that would prevent us from getting pregnant and no one had any answers! I think they thought we were young and dumb. Well.....in May of 2002 I concieved on my own and we sadly had to lay him to rest at 24wks gestation. We still wanted our family no matter how bad we were hurting and once we got the clearance with our first AF after the birth we were back on the horse! Again.......no one had any answers why we weren't concieving! We went on Clomid for two months and had to stop because I had to get some medical issues under control! Then we decided not to go back on it since it made me CRAZY! Well we kept trying and then I finally decided to take different route! Got a breast reduction in 2005. Well after the summer starting in September 2005 we were feeling very faithless!! In fact I had said on numerous occasions that I would NEVER be a mommy nor would I even concieve again and that my first pregnancy was my last and God's way of dangling what I want in my face and taking it away to say that I wasn't good enough for some reason! So back to Sept we started on clomid again. Then in November we still hadn't gotten pregnant and just feeling so overwhelmed and frustrated!! My NP in my OB/GYN's office finally said lets run some tests on both myself and my husband! We found out that the problem was actually my husband's sperm and we set up to have IUI done. Well December of 2005 we didn't take clomid because of the tests! When January rolled around we started on clomid and on the 31st of January I had my first round of IUI! On February 14th I found out I was pregnant and guess what I am 24wks into this pregnancy and expecting another little boy!! We are just overjoyed and trying to stay positive but at times I feel faithless and doom lurking ahead. I just want to wake up from this dream but then again......I want to see how the dream ends! It's ok to feel faithless........sometimes things don't go on schedule or how we want exactly and we tend to get negative about it! Trust me you aren't alone!! Even with some positives in my life I still feel faithless!!
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