The pain is to much for me I am loosing it

[mypreciousashley]

The pain of grieving the loss of my baby girl Ashley has been a bit more then I can handle latly. I am not numb anymore and I feel everything . I watch tv and break down to the floor and just cry my eyes out and hold my stomach. I think of my ashley all the time.

No parent should ever have to feel the loss of their baby . It is the hardest trauma anyone can ever go through . I feel it is so unfair she died. Being my first baby this has wripped me apart and I did not realize how much till all the numbness wore off. Yes I have been hurting but now its even more for me

The pain is more then I can hanlde. I dont know if this is normal to feel latly. I seem to be crying all the time. Oh my little ashley I miss you so much. You are my angel above and mommy wants you back. I miss you more then I can say .

If I could only get to heaven to give my baby a hug and hold he for short time and come back I would. The loss of her is so aweful and painful. I feel like im shattering inside. The love I felt for her I hafe never felt for any others. It is so hard to realize how much a very small live can shatter your heart and mind.

I cried for three hours tonight and could not stop. I had nobody to talk to. I am not afraid to give my number out and if people would like to contact me I could use someone who does understand. People can even pen pal with me if they like. I need a friend. The father of this baby has not even been here for me. I am doing this so a lone


love
Debbie

[cs]

are u on aol?? u can im me at neo20f.....if u are not on aol we can email at [e-mail]. ill talk to you.

[mypreciousashley]

I do not have aol but I do have msn and also yahoo. I dont think my teas are ever going to stop. I am in so much pain and its hard to understand the pain I feel. I feel to much and its to painful

Debbie

[mypreciousashley]

I tried to email you and it came back to me. My email you can email me at is [e-mail] and my messanger for both yahoo and msn is [e-mail]

Debbie

[cs]

ok open ur msn messenger..i am signed on and i sent u a contacts request from [e-mail] i think i did it 3 times..i was confused sorry

[chantal74]

Hi Debbie,

You can email me anytime. I'm frequently on the internet and on MSN. My email address is [e-mail] and MSN is [e-mail]

I look forward to chatting with you.

Take Good care
Chantal

[mypreciousashley]

Chantele, I sent you invite to messanger. I hope to talk to you sometime soon. I appreciate you wanting to talk to me.

Debbie