Nervous and Scared (pg mentioned)

[andrewsmommy]

I have an ultrasound this afternoon and I am nervous and scared. When I lost Andrew I was alone at an ultrasound. I some how drove home and had to wait for dh to get home to tell him our beautiful son was gone.

Well last night dh tells me that he might be running late and I may have to go to the ultrasound alone. I would rather not go at all. I tried to make him understand how important it is he be there. I can't do this alone. I am a strong person but I refuse to ever go to an ultrasound alone, ever again.

I am so scared that when they do the ultrasound I will hear those words, "I sorry." Twice now I have heard those terrible words. I can't take another loss. I know everything seems to be going well but I am so scared.

The dr is doing all of these ultrasounds for my "piece of mind" but honestly I am lossing what little mind I had left!! I don't eat well or sleep for the few days leading up to one. I get sick to my stomach thinking about how this could go so wrong so quick.

Last night I lost it completly. I was alone in bed and couldn't stop sobbing. I cried for Andrew. I begged God (and I am not religious) to please let this baby stay. I almost threw up I was crying so hard. I know I need to be calm for this baby but my goodness I feel like I am lossing it.

[babs]

Mindie,
I don't have any great words to ease your mind because I'm feeling the same things too. :'(I'm sorry, I wish I did.
All I can say is that I'm thinking of you hon.I keep you in my prayers(haven't prayed so much in my WHOLE life as I do lately!) and I just have to hold out hope for the both of us that this is gonna all work out.
Love and peace,
xoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxox
me

[george1995]

Oh Mindie

((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((HUG))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

I'm really sorry I was alone when I found out George had died......I totally understand why you feel the way you do.

I haven't got any great words of wisdom, is there anyone close by that could go with you? Parent or friend??? I think its totally understandable that you feel this way. I am hoping and praying all will be well for you, PLEASE do let us know

Sending love and prayers your way

[my2angels]

Mindie,

I don't have anything that I can say that will ease your mind ~ I just wanted to give you a big, fat, huge ((((HUG))))!

I will be thinking of you..please keep us posted as to how the u/s goes

Cass

[kaha]

Mindie, I am so sorry you are having such a hard time waiting for your U/S. how cruel that this sweet anticipation to see our little ones has been taken away from us (I am not pg yet but I cannot imagine happy waiting for u/s). I do not think I could go for u/s alone.Ever.
If I only could, in this minute I would teleport to the States to be there with you,
((((hugs))))

[hunterandbethsmom]

Mindie,
You know that all of us are here for you...regardless. I am sure everything will be just fine. I am sorry that you are going to have to be alone, I don't blame you for being scared...I would be too. Just know that we are all thinking about you, and keeping you in our prayers...

[my3girls]

Mindy - Do you have a friend that can go with you? I had gone in for an emergency appt with Piglet b/c I had been so sick. My Dr listened to my heartbeat & looking back I honestly think that she knew something was very wrong right then. She told me that they were going to put me on an IV & that I would need to call my DH to come & get me b/c I wouldn't be able to drive home. When he got there they did the u/s & we were told the news.

My best friend was going to be in the delivery room with us & she has gone to my follow up appt when my DH couldn't be there with me. The next time we get pg she has already said that she will be at any appt that I need her at JIC. I will never do an appt alone b/c I KNOW that there is no way I could handle that. My DH's company is very sweet & tries to let him be at all my appts but with there being so many - it's not always possible. I just know that I am never going into that u/s room alone - I don't care if I have to drag a co-worker with me.

I'll be praying for your appt to go well - - - - maybe they can hold the u/s until your DH gets there for you. I'm sure they would all understand why you would ask for that.

Brie

[selmasings]

Mindie, I am so sorry sweetie, I completely understand. I was terrified to go to a single scan on my own after losing Thomas. Do you perhaps have any friends or family that can go with you? I wish I could hold your hand through this.

I just want you to know that I will be thinking of you and hope that all goes well and that you get the support you so need. (((((((HUG)))))))

Love

Vicky xXx

[Buckeye]

Mindie -- here's hoping that you are now home from the docs and everything is just dandy. I know how hard it is to re-live those awful moments from the past. I don't like ultrasounds at all anymore -- even when we were doing them to find out if I was ovulating, I would get all nervous. For so many of us, the words, "I'm sorry, there isn't a heartbeat" will always be at the front of our minds in the ultrasound room.

Maybe now that you are getting close to the second trimester, you can lay off the scans for a while? Just a thought.

Take care, sweetie -- we're all pulling for you.

Jen

[Heaven&Earth]

Mindie, I hope Adam made it home in time! And if you EVER need someone to go with you, all you have to do is ask!! You know I would go with you if you need someone!!

((((Baby Button))))

Hope your u/s went great today, I"ll be calling you tonight for an update on my future "niece/nephew"

[mypreciousashley]

I want to say the right words to comfort you but not fully sure I could but want you to know I am sending large hugs your way and will keep you in my prayers. I can only imagine trying this again must be so scary not sure I will ever be able to do it again like this myself

Debbie