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Post by Buckeye on Nov 9, 2005 16:37:57 GMT -5
OK, I just responded to a post on MAM about keeping kids in their room at night. Responded before I even really looked to see who posted it. Then I noticed that the little nocturnal wanderer was born on the same day Will was stillborn. Is it really possible that I should have a 1 1/2 year old running around my house right now? How can that be? I am still grieving for the tiny newborn.... it is too much sometimes, too much to deal with every day and still try to maintain the rest of my life. How can I grieve for the toddler, too?
Jen
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Post by nancyk on Nov 9, 2005 16:42:30 GMT -5
Oh Jen,
I understand what you mean. There is a little girl at the babysitters who turned two on Nov. 5th, Alaina would be two on Nov 11th. I see Christina every day and I just keep thinking about all the things that Alaina has never gotten to do!
I have been an emotional wreck this week. It does not help that my mom had her breast cancer surgery, my job is extremely stressful right now and hubby is still very sick.
I just want to crawl into a whole and not come out until Nov 12.
God Bless,
Nancy
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Post by mommy2five on Nov 9, 2005 17:04:53 GMT -5
((((((((((HUGS))))))))))
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Post by Shar on Nov 9, 2005 20:01:08 GMT -5
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Post by babs on Nov 9, 2005 20:16:08 GMT -5
Jen, I'm feelin it too, babe! :'(I will forever mourn my lost little newborn...that is what he'll always be to me.I see other little ones who are the same age that he should be and it stings, but even now when I see one of those brand new ones.......*sigh*......it hurts just like it was yesterday.I don't think that I have it in me to mourn that toddler either.I'm just still trying to get through losing my baby.  I'm sorry hon.I love ya. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo |
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Post by hunterandbethsmom on Nov 10, 2005 4:49:03 GMT -5
A few months ago, I met the baby that was born the same day as my Beth, and it was amazing to see what she would have been doing...amazing and sad...
Hugs to you...
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Post by mypreciousashley on Nov 10, 2005 6:20:44 GMT -5
I can so relate to not sleeping. I woke up because of nightmare hearing my baby cry and I was reliving the moment I lost my baby . I will always wonder the beauty of my precious Ashley. I can only imagine what it is for each of you also. It seems so far to be very hard road and my heart goes out to all
Debbie
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Post by Buckeye on Nov 10, 2005 10:22:45 GMT -5
Thanks ladies.... it does help to know I'm not alone.
Peace to us all -- Jen
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Post by my3girls on Nov 11, 2005 17:16:37 GMT -5
I can't bring myself to look at PAM or MAM right now ~ I'm sorry about the toddler part though. I guess we think this will get easier with time until we get blindsidded again. My mom told me a few weeks ago that every once in a while she stills wonders about the two little boys that she & my dad were going to adopt as babies (both adoptions fell through) She said she even wondered about how their lives were on my wedding day & wondered if they were married yet, kids, all that. She never even saw the boys (just my dad did - mom didn't think she could take getting attached & then not getting them) & she never carried them - & she still wonders about their lives. So wondering about what your baby would have been doing now can't be too strange of a thing to do. Don't know if that helps, just thought it was neat that it doesn't matter how long you knew them, just matters that you love them.
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