tv program on pregnancy loss

[kaha]

Well I did it. I participated in a program on pregnancy loss. I was recruited on one of our polish boards, simply wrote an e-mail with my history. As soon as I sent it, doubts set in. I regretted sooo much thinking "I have nothing important to say" "I will say too personal things and regret it later". I was wishing that nobody would contact me, but they did! Nice lady phoned me and explained how everything would look like, so I said OK.As we say in polish "if you said A, you have to say B as well". I wanted to do it, because I want baby's death to be something to talk about, not a taboo, so thinking like this I am obliged to do something about it as well .
And I did not regret it all. There were 3 of us in this program and we all talked about emotiones connected with baby's loss. Hosts of the program were very sympathetic and nice, they did not say any stupid things people usually do. They even used Piotrus' name while asking about him. Can you imagine?
I was afraid that these people would look for sensations (few months ago there was a talkshow on tv "I had a stillbirth" and audience actually judged the mother who decided to leave her stillborn baby in the hospital as being awful mother. Who are THESE people to judge???), but they were totally OK, in every moment.
I was proud of myself and wanted to share it thanks for listening

[andrewsmommy]

I am so proud of you. What a huge step! Is this the same girl I met just months ago? how far you have come (((HUG))) I know Piotrus is very proud of his mommy.

[Heaven&Earth]

I am very proud of you and I am glad that you feel better now that you've done it. I'm sure by participating you will touch many people who will see this program and I know that Piotrus is looking down and is very proud of his mom!

[catherine]

Your post makes me smile.

I remember those first days. And I see where you're at now. It's been a lot of tough work, but you did it. You SHOULD be proud of yourself.

Any way we can get a taped copy?

[momtoWill]

That is so awesome! I am so proud of you, too. That took a lot of courage and I'm sure you have made an impact on others. Piotrus must be so proud of his mother!

(((hugs)))

[hunterandbethsmom]

Wow that is SO NEAT!! I would love for the opportunity to get on tv like that and share my experience. Before my losses, I never realized that all pregnancies didn't end happily...boy was I wrong. I was unaware there were issues with ttc and fertility....I thought if you wanted to get pg, it just happened!! I would love to get the awareness out there, so more people will know how to handle their friends and family, or even themselves should this terrible thing happen.
Good for you! I know that Piotrus is proud of his Mommy!

[mypreciousashley]

wow you must of been very strong to do that. Great job!!! I dont think it was fair they judged that one women. I would of not ever left my baby but each person makes their own decisions on how to deal with things and nobody has the right to judge. I feel bad for the lady who went throught that. I hope she is okay now.

Debbie

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You girls are so great thanks thanks thanks for all your kind words!
It was an experience really! You should know what kind of person I am to know what I went through deciding whether to participate or not - basically I flush any time I have to say anything publicly and my self-esteem is simetimes sooo low, like, everything I say is boring or obvious or even if it is not, it said in such a boring way that nobody would listen But I do not have this feeling about this program, that is great

Catherine, I videoed this program and Dh will try to transform it into digital format and when this is ready I would love to share it with you