what can i do at christmas?

[missujailyn]

Hi everyone, i am so happy SG is back. I thought I mostly just read but lately, i have really needed people to talk to.
anyways, i was just wondering what you do when christmas rolls around. this will be my first christmas without Jailyn. I am terrified. I normally LOVE xmas but i am dreading it this year.
Do any of you do any kind of special memorial for your precious angels?
Thanks in advance!!

[kaha]

hi! I plan to fall asleep on the 23rd and wake up on the 3rd of January (2nd is my birthday and it will be hard too I guess). Seriously I hate Xmas now, I am already crying only thinking about it and I do not know how the he*l I am going to face it in reality. First Xmas without Piotrus, first time for me too. DH and I are going skiing to Austria between 10th and 17th of December so luckily we will avoid at least some of this "wonderful" time. I regret we can't do this on Xmas, I am afraid it would break our families' heart as this is very family time for us. Only, I do not feel like celebrating family now. I do not want it, I hate it.
((((hugs))))

[ladylost]

I, like Kaha, would like to fall asleep and not wake on Christmas morning. Sadly, I cannot do that. Christmas has to go on for my 2 boys and Santa isn't going to have everything ready if I don't get out of bed.

I've been thinking a lot about what to do this year because even though Sydney isn't here physically she is in my heart. I noticed the local Hallmark store has a series of angel ornaments. I will probably buy her one every year. Hang it on the tree along with all the others and try to get through the day, just like any other.

Everyone says "holidays are the hardest" but I beg to differ because leaving the hospital empty handed was pretty friggin hard. You'll have to do whatever is best for you and your family. I pray we all go easy on ourselves this holiday season.

[Heaven&Earth]

I have a few special ornaments I hang on the tree for my Lainey. One was a star that I painted at a ceramics shop and wrote her name on. There is a place online called www.thecomfortcompany.net that has some cool ornaments. My 1st Christmas without my girl was hard, as I'm sure it always will be. Maybe you could find an angel tree at the mall and buy a gift for a child off that tree the same age as your baby would be. That's what I plan on doing.

[Shar]

Last year was our first without MarieAnne in our arms. It was very hard. We actually decided that the lesser of two evils was to go home and spend some time with my family. (with reaction to our daughters life and death, contact with Dh's family has been stopped). I had a nervous breakdown in janurary, but I think that had everything to do with her EDD (jan1) and nothing to do with the holidays. I didn't get a chance last year, but I wanted a special ornament for her, and I'll get one each year. This year I'm getting last years and this years.
For last year I found this www.richremembrances.com/ten_toe.html (I hope that it worked) and this year I'm getting a personalized one from www.aplacetoremember.com

Oh, www.abbeypress.com has some nice things too.

I also made MarieAnne a white satin and pink fleece stocking last year. I'll hang that in a special place this year, for my precious darling Angel Girl.


God bless you,





MarieAnne Elizabeth
~18 August 2004~
Born 5:20 am
Died 6:40 am
Born at 20weeks 5 days


Born too early, gone to fast,
But our love is strong,
And our memories will last.

[campbellsmommy]

Those are some good suggestions. All i can add is that im going to go to church for the first time in years and light a candle on that day.

Jess

[andrewsmommy]

Last year was my first Christmas without Andrew. It is kind of odd, but I met Angie (heaven&Earth) for the first time at the ceramics shop. She made an ornament and I painted Andrew a little snowman.

I thought long and hard and decided not to cancal Christmas because Andrew could still look down and see the tree and lights. It was not the normal happy Christmas, I forced myself to get in the holiday mood (kinda hard when your crying) but I am glad I did it.

The local SHARE group does a memorial try that you can leave an ornament on. I went to the craft store and bought one to paint. I finished it but we didn't go. I couldn't bring myself to go. It hurt to much, but I kept the ornament and we hung it on our tree, along with one that said mom and one that said dad, because dang it we are parents.

Christmas bites, I am not going to lie. It is hard, when you had so many hopes and dreams. Finding a way to include Andrew (the snowman and ornament on the tree) made it a little easier. Just know we (who have had our first Christmas) will be hear to hold your hand when it gets here.

[raven]

Hi there. I too feel the same about Christmas, i used to look forward to it but im not really this year, it will be our first Christmas without Flynn.
I brought two little decoration's for our tree when we put it up. One is a Teddy Bear dressed in a Santa Suit, the other is of an Angel. They are both very nice. I wanted to do something special for my babies on Christmas, i just wish thing's were differn't as well all do no doubt.
Im also going to my first Christmas Service in December to remember our babies. It is being organised by SANDS, which is the support group i go too, so that should be nice, but very sad too.

Rebecca

[sarahsmom]

Thank you ladies for posting the links and all the ideas. This will also be my first Christmas since we lost Jesse. I've been trying to figure out what to do- an ornament or two of course, but something special too. I was very ill last Christmas(Thanksgiving, Christmas and until his delivery), so I need to make it special for dd this year... just don't know how I'll be able to get in the spirit of it. HUGS to all, Susan

[missujailyn]

Thank you everyone for your responses!!! they mean alot to me!