CINDEE

[lindac]

Cindee,

Just wanted to reach out today and see how you are doing? The few days before the 1st anniversary seemed to be the hardest for so many on these various boards. I remember only too well. We relive those days and that makes it even rougher. I recall being very happy and carefree right before, dh's job was going very well, I was on vacation and traveling each day with dh, we could afford to do things at last. All of that suddenly ended.

Know that you are allowed to be weepy right now, to be wrapped in memories some good, some bad. Know that you have friends here who understand the struggle and we are here for you. Tuesday a candle will be burning for Ally.

love and (((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))

[Teeny's Mom]

Oh Linda C,
Thank you so much for the comforting words. I just came in from working in the yard all morning and afternoon. I put on my headphones, blasted the music and tried to forget the pain for a few hours. The tears are flowing freely again. I had just gotten to where I could go a few days without them, now, I am lucky to go an hour.
I know I will be Ok, I will get through the day and all of days after. Sometimes, though, I don't want to be OK anymore. I just want to be rid of the pain. Last year I lost my youngest daughter physically, and my older daughter emotionally. She is struggling so much and it is hard to watch her and not be able to make everything OK.
Thanks again for taking the time to reach out to me. It means more to me that I can ever say here.

[MomofBuilder]

Cindee, I have never had a day without tears for my Aaron.

Your older daughter will come back to you when she can. It is likely so hard for her to see you hurting so much.

I don't have any children at home. They are all grown and married. I am so happy when I can see the two little grandsons.

hugs
Carol

[pamela]

((((((((((((((((((((((Cindee)))))))))))))))))))),


You will get through this just as you said, and it is perfectly normal to not want to. To want it just all to go away and for everything to just go back to the way it was a year ago. Sometimes I think we even amaze ourselves that we can survive this....but we do, we go on.

I am sorry that your other daughter is struggling so much. Its so hard to see our children hurting. I do think though Cindee that its good she is expressing her grief. I will continue to keep her in my thoughts.

Take care Cindee, cry those tears, it does help.

Love pam

[joan]

(((((Cindee))))) - thinking of you. This is a most diffilcult time as memories come flooding back. Your Ally is beautiful.

Blessings

Joan

[Corinne]

{{{{{{{Cindee}}}}}}}}}}

I wish there were words to make the coming days easier. Just know that we are here. Anytime you want to talk about Jessica, please feel free. Many of us have other children and have dealt with sibling grief also.

[ericsmom]

Hi ((((((((((((((((((((((((((Cindee))))))))))))))))))))))))))))). I'm thinking of you as Thursday approaches. I am also keeping Jessica in my prayers.........both of my sons are still having a difficult time dealing with Eric's death, and my youngest son has also shut down emotionally. It is absolutely frightening, as a parent, to watch a child try and survive this.

I'll be praying for you and your family.

Denise

[rachiesmom]

Dear Cindy,
I know that tomorrow will be hard for you, but I pray that you will find a way to remember your beautiful daughter so that you will be able to smile through your tears. May God bless and comfort you.