brandonsmom
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Brandon 11/09/1984 - 07/09/2005
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Post by brandonsmom on Nov 9, 2005 11:21:30 GMT -5
Brandon would have been 22 years old today. It's also 4 months today since he died. God I miss him! I don't know how I'm every going to get through the holidays.
I'm going to write Brandon a Birthday note, put it in a balloon, then let it go at the accident scene. I "feel" him more there than I do at his grave.
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Post by pd2004 on Nov 9, 2005 11:36:57 GMT -5
Birthdays are so difficult. The flood of memories is unending and leave you feeling so alone and venerable. May God give you his grace to remember the joyous times you were able to share with your child on this day, when he is missed so much
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Post by pd2004 on Nov 9, 2005 11:38:41 GMT -5
Spell check and my lack of glasses failed me - it shoudl be "vulnerable"
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rachiesmom
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Little lamb, who made thee? Doest thou know who made thee?
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Post by rachiesmom on Nov 9, 2005 12:13:09 GMT -5
Dear Brandon's Mom,
What a difficult day for you! Birthdays are supposed to be a celebration of life, but how are you supposed to celebrate that precious life when he is no longer with you?
I think your idea of releasing the balloon is a wonderful idea. Like the balloon, Brandon's spirit soars above in a heavenly place where everything is beautiful and perfect.
Today you will probably be reliving Brandon's life from the day he was born until the day he left you. He was your baby, and you were his mama. That will never change.
May God bless you in some special way on this very special day, and may you find some peace and rest for your soul.
Marilyn
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Post by heartsore on Nov 9, 2005 12:19:56 GMT -5
brandonsmom - Your loss is so new and these dates are so difficult. I have found for myself, though, that these special days aren't really any more difficult than any other day. They're all hard. Be gentle with yourself and I think the balloon idea is very good.
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Post by Corinne on Nov 9, 2005 12:51:40 GMT -5
Birthdays, especially the first are just so difficult.
{{{{{{{{{}}}}}}}} hugs to you
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Post by ericsmom on Nov 9, 2005 14:54:34 GMT -5
(((((((((((((((((((Brandon's Mom))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) There are no words to make this better. Eric would have been 20 this past Saturday the 5th, and it was our second birthday without him. Last week was awful, terrible, and exhausting. It is so hard...... I will be praying for you.
Denise
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Post by pamela on Nov 9, 2005 16:21:00 GMT -5
(((((((((((((Brandon's Mom)))))))))))))))))))))))),
Just not right that Brandon isn't here to share this special day, the most special day when he became part of your life. I know today is so hard on you, but maybe try for just a sec. to think of all those wonderful years that you had with him, I know it doesn't
take away the pain of him not being here today but I am sure you have some beautiful memories of some special times you shared. Take care hon, I so wish you didn't have to deal with this.
Love pam
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Post by MomofBuilder on Nov 9, 2005 21:18:12 GMT -5
Dear Brandon's mom,
Every day is hard but the special days are hardest of all. It was about 3 1/2 months after Aaron died that his birth date came and went with him not here to turn the new number. We are nearing a year and I still can't believe he is not coming back. The birthday is one of the hardest days as we re-live how special that time used to be. When I saw Aaron dead in the ER I wanted to give birth to him again..to give him life as I once had...to go through the pain of childbirth...any pain...to have him alive again.
I am glad you have found a way to celebrate his life.
Hugs
Carol
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Post by shirley on Nov 9, 2005 22:38:20 GMT -5
I pray God's peace that passes understanding will feel you today. I have had 2 of Matthew's b'days. The first was only 2 wks. after he died. The second was harder because I wasn't so "numb" with shock. I released balloons, had a few of his friends over, lit candles with them. It helped. I actually did experience a great deal of peace that day, although, of cource, I was sad. I'm thinking of you.
Shirley
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Post by angeldixon2002 on Nov 10, 2005 12:40:26 GMT -5
I am sorry I too in August had to relieve my baby's first birthday without her. There is nothing that I can say that will help you, except that we are here for you many hugs.
Maria
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Post by joan on Nov 11, 2005 12:08:25 GMT -5
Sorry I'm late. It is such a hard time and brings up so many memories. Been thinking of you.
(((((((hugs)))))))
Joan
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Post by missingjason on Nov 11, 2005 17:06:34 GMT -5
Thinking of you. I have not been to my sons accident scene, afraid to go alone I guess. My son said he would take me but we couldn't get out, because its in someones yard. Although there is a cross out there (the owner said we could put one up) I have never seen it. My mom hasn't seen it either and she tries to stear me away from going there.  |
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Post by kenmay on Nov 11, 2005 22:32:31 GMT -5
My prayers and thoughts are with you.
I hope you made it through the day OK.
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