I'm just not that good at it anymore

[yukonjake]

Dear Montana,

No, I was not in that state. I just found that I didn't like being in my head when my family was away. Hurtful, depressive stuff, stuff that I can usually keep at arm's length, comes crowding in when I am without my family. I'm not talking here at work or commuting, but when I am home and they have left for their own things.

The good news is that my bride returned safely home last night. To paraphrase Steinbeck, "The world is turning on greased gooves." Or at least as close as it can get without my Timmer.

[judiann]

.........but I wasn't that good at it to begin with.

Now, it seems that the only way I can handle the hurt, the pain, any of it.....is to be alone. The physical presense of a loving, supportive family makes all the difference in the world......& what little support I had is slowly slipping away.

I'm glad your family is home, safe & sound & your world is again good for you. I'm sure they appreciated you showering before they got home.

Love to You,

judiann