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Post by myheart on Dec 19, 2005 14:41:11 GMT -5
I don't really have much to say...I guess I just find some comfort in coming here. I've been thinking of all of you, thinking how each one of us is fighting a battle we have already lost....My heart is so heavy, I can't even find the will....someone told me the other day, as friends do, you will at some point in your life learn to live with the loss of him....I told her, but you see, I don't want to live without him at all. I have no desire to continue to walk on this earth. How do I go on.....how do any of us. We are already ghosts of ourselves taking showers, eating dinner, washing clothes. I never realized how much I miss the little things....there are so many. I have a constant reel of memories that flash in my mind. I keep tossing and turning, even when I'm awake to avoid the pain. It's so strong I want to jump out of my own skin. I wish comfort to everyone, I think of you often when I am struggling. I know that somewhere you to are feeling my pain.....
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Post by andrea on Dec 19, 2005 18:41:48 GMT -5
You are right Krista, we do feel your pain. I always thought and heard, you'll learn to accept it or to adjust. I just kept thinking "I dont want to!" I still don't want to, I don't feel like I've accepted it, but not really had a choice and so I'm living with it. If that makes sense.
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Post by pamela on Dec 19, 2005 19:24:11 GMT -5
Accepting the pain..means accepting our child's death and I still am not ready to do that as neither of you ladies are.
Yes we do go on...we have to...we are the ones now responsible for keeping our child's memory alive.
(((((((((((((((((Krista))))))))))))))))))))) and also
((((((((((((((((((((((Andrea))))))))))))))))))) please know I do care and am keeping both of you in my thoughts as you go through these very, very difficult days w/o your precious chldren....
Pam
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Post by andrea on Dec 20, 2005 8:05:57 GMT -5
Thanks so much Pam ((((((((((((hugs)))))))))) right back at you. :-) BTW, I liked the collage I saw in the other thread. :-)
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