i feel so empty

[drea]

i am so lost without my little man. i just dont know what to do with myself and i feel so empty. we were robbed plain and simple. he was was perfect like the angel he is now in heaven. tradegy is always the thing that makes you really really look at things for what they are. i keep wondering why and i will never know. i was given such a precious gift for only a short time. it is not fair. i want to scream at someone. i wasnt ready to give him back so soon. i just wasnt ready. i had so many plans for us. he ws my dancing buddy. i would put on old motown and we would dance and dance. he was a gift from god.and i cant have anymore. i chose that. it was different this time,being pregnant wth sam. i felt a connection like i hadnt felt b-4. maybe i loved him too much. i just keep asking why lord? it just doesnt make any sense. i miss my son

[myheart]

I am so sad for you....I know what empty feels like. I ask God all day everyday why so soon, why at all...There are so many terrible, cruel, heartless people in the world, why take away our babies. My sweet boy has been gone 2 1/2 weeks.....I know that I don't even need to describe the utter pain and heartache I am feeling. I now that you are there to. I miss him so much, more of me dies every day. How can we love someone this much. I'm sorry for you loss, I hope peace finds you. Your in my prayers.....Krista

[anthonysmommy]

I am so sorry for your loss, Drea. I miss our son too very much.....it seems like we hardly got to know him at all. In the beginning I too often wondered why me, why him, why us? But then my husband pointed out to me why not me, why not him, why not us? Are we more special than anyone else out there in the world? No we are not. It's what we do with it now that makes the difference. I know that may be hard to think about right now but maybe with time you will begin to heal and see how much your little Sam can help enrich your life and those around you. I would have never believed that statement right after we lost Anthony. It is very soon for you to feel this way, right now you need to just let your feelings go where they may. I hope your other children and family are supportive of you and let you lean upon them in your time of need. I hope you find the moms and some dads here as a place where you can turn those feelings loose and know that we understand where you are coming from and want to help you in anyway we possibly can. Hang in there. I will be praying for you.
God Bless,
Michelle

[drea]

thank you and may peace find you as well also. i lost my sam on nov 18. he was just 2 months and 4 days old. never have i felt like this. so many people i know and see have many children and do not appreciate them. they are all blessings. i will always be looking for answers. the pain that we feel is like no other. we have angels looking over us. may god bless and keep you well.
andrea